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Went for a small walk this morning. This fence is very popular in our area!! I live on the harbor and it's so appropriate that he created this. I'm now week 5 of bad pain in my gut. Yesterday tests were done, hoping to hear tomorrow what they showed, but there's NO WAY even in this pain I am staying inside!! It's going to hurt any ways, I did though go gently on my body. Now resting. Such a PRETTY DAY!! If you are able please go outside no matter how you feel.

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    Thanks, Dearheart for the snowman! He is delightful! We'll probably just have lots of rain again this year as the weather man predicts the la nina system to be going through again. Ah, well, beats the town being shut down because of an in. of snow! This part of the country can't deal with the white stuff! Coming from Montana, I think they're nuts! Anyway, are you behaving yourself? I know, of course not! I hope you're taking good care of yourself, though as you are pretty precious to me! Take care and have a very successful week! emoticon
    3317 days ago
    Hi there! I'm so happy to here that your Princey is feeling better. I remember the money flying out of my wallet so fast when my babies needed it, and that was WITH a fantastic vet who worked with me on keeping costs down.

    I did post about my new mirror BUT I had a horrible mommy moment the other day when i accidentally closed the closet door on my Cheddar's tail after hanging it up! He's fine, just mad at me until I gave him some nip. I missed this week's weigh in because I was just checked out and W-I-P-E-D out after helping clean out my grandmother's garage for her. What a job that was...lots of picking things up and putting them down, too bad I couldn't count the whole five hours towards the team exercise.

    And what what WHAT is going on with these earthquakes and hurricanes??? It felt like a truck had backed into our loading dock too hard except the building didn't stop shaking for 30 seconds and I'm in NJ. I can't imagine what the people who live around DC and Richmond felt. I'll be holed up in my apartment with the furbabies all weekend with Irene coming to town...Tammie's super scared of storms so I need to be there for her to hide "under". You know that thing they do when they bury their head in your side and don't move for three hours?

    I'll be sure to check in so that we all know everyone's ok with this madness, in the mean time have a great Thursday!

    3317 days ago
    Hi Diane, I'm sure the moon was smiling beautifully but I rarely see it since my meds make me so exhausted, I never wake up and now I'm in bed by 11. I used to only sleep 2-4 hours a day and that was all I needed and I functioned well but now that is the compromise. I'm hoping to find a better alternative.

    I live in the suburbs but I love being outside, I could sit out on the patio if I was awake. When Adam was alive, we sat out on our deck a lot. When I was with my ex-husband we went to Lake Erie a lot and spent a lot of time outside and I loved it. I really love being outside.

    Maybe you can have a midnight bbq with your friends and enjoy the beauty and wonder and the company of good friends. Your upcoming dinner sounds wonderful, I hope you have a fabulous time.

    Your date with your BF sounds great, my sister and I meet at the gym and sometimes watch Biggest Loser "together" also. I'm glad you were able to tell her how you felt and she was able to acknowledge your feelings, her actions, and to say that she was sorry. I think it is healthy to have boundaries in most areas in our life. She does sound so very sweet and I'm glad you have her as a friend.

    I definitely haven't been on an MAOI because I haven't had food restrictions like that. I have several fatal allergies already and understand your fear of eating out and with others when you aren't in control of what is being served. I'm so happy for you that it has worked so well although it must be hard to want foods since so many are off limits.

    I haven't tried Lyrica because I am trying to lose weight and I don't want that side effect, if they could cause you to lose weight I wouldn't be as hesitant to take another pill although I would still have some hesitation. I seem to have the most problems if I don't move enough and if I don't keep my emotions in check so I exercise at least 6 days a week and have quiet time every day and listen to my music almost all day long.

    After the 13 weeks of therapy, you are in a position that you are equipped to act as your own therapist and don't need another one for the PTSD. I have been able to get through my flashbacks quickly and easily and have had only one or two since therapy finished but one was when I was doing something that you would expect to trigger me. I can call for an appointment if I can't get through something on my own, I have worksheets if I can't mentally do the work or if I need a quick refresher.

    I still have traditional therapy but I'm wanting to reduce my visits because I'm happy with the changes I've made in my life and only wish I had more energy and more hours in the day because there is so much I want to learn.

    It sounds like you have a great system in place and that everything works for you. GD's can be kinda messy, I understand. I used to have two pomeranians and there was so much fur but boy do I miss them.

    You have a great day/night. Blessings and Peace

    3318 days ago
    I'm doing really good thank you. I have been so busy! Lol! I posted. Blog earlier this last week because I had my graduation ceremony and to celebrate we went white water rafting. I posted some pictures you should check it out. I hope your doing well. Have a wonderful weekend!!
    3320 days ago
    I love your idea of looking back at the sparkpage that will help me so much, I wish I had thought of that sooner, thank you for the tip!

    I don't remember if I've been on an MAOI since they have put me on so many as far as I know I have been on all of them at one point and I have tried numerous combinations and many made me much more depressed than I was before I started the medication. I didn't take AD's again until Dec, 2010 after I was well stabilized and then only a small dose of wellbutrin. I haven't had any side effects from it but I'm happen enough with lifestyle changes that I'm working with the doctor to get off of it since I just passed Adam's 17th birthday and made it through it with flying colors.

    I'm so glad that the MAOI's have done such amazing and wonderful thing for you, you sound so very happy. I love life too, I said the other day it is great to be in my 40s and loving life like a kid. I'm so glad we could find the other side of life after tragedy and loss and I wish so desperately that we could show the way to others and give them what has helped us to spare them any more pain and hardship.

    I feel so bad for your bf, I know parents in my grief group that have had to make the decision to take their child off life support and then feel the guilt that they made the wrong decision even though they know their child would want them to make that decision. I've heard of people who hold on and won't pass on until they are alone because they don't want to make it harder on their loved ones and that may be the case here. My Step Mom's mom recently passed and she went quietly when two people were with her but both had turned their attention away for a few minutes.

    The added physical pain she experiences makes perfect sense to me. I have fibromyalgia and stress adds to the pain and there are so many trigger points and the worse your emotional state is the worse your physical state is. The better my emotions are the better I feel physically.

    I can understand wanting to keep a friendship but setting healthy boundaries so you are not harmed in any way. I'm glad that you are strong enough to do that.

    Thank you for saying Adam is so handsome, he looks a lot like my Dad, some people think we look alike.

    I'm in traditional therapy now but I did go through Cognitive process therapy after every other type of therapy I tried failed to help with severe PTSD. It is the current therapy the military uses to treat soldiers who have PTSD, it is a 12 week course unless bereavement is involved and then its 13. They teach you how to take traumatizing or painful thoughts or events and make them less painful or make them in some cases positive. I can make almost anything positive now.

    I can understand why you were attracted to WL, I was too, I worked in statistics but with my memory problem, I was afraid of making an error with the calculation. Do you miss your work?

    I'm terribly sorry about your painful day, I will pray your pain eases quickly. Have you ever had any relief from a a TENZ unit; a lot of D.O.'s and chiropractors use them. Your doctor can write you a RX for one, I love mine.

    I'm sorry about the allergies but the trade off sounds well worth it. Adam was allergic to corn, milk, eggs, apples, grapes for his first several years and had a similar cake for his birthdays. I hope the cake turns out fabulous.

    You are such a sweetheart, I'm so glad I found your page.
    3320 days ago