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Introduction Text "If you want to be a butterfly you have to want to fly so badly that you're prepared to give up being a caterpillar." This phrase spoke to me in Sept 2011 and I decided I was fed up of being a caterpillar. After only 4 dedicated months I was ready to start stretching my wings again and in 10 months I lost 121 pounds and REACHED PAST MY GOAL WEIGHT. My life was so much better.I was more active, energetic and agile.My health was so much better , but 3 awful,stressful and unhappy years havresulted in me practically gaining back all of the weight I lost. The butterfly went back inside it's cocoon to hide from life and to protect itself. Now it's time to rejoin the real world, spread my wings and learn to fly again knowing I am a survivor, knowing I am a warrior and knowing I deserve such much more. Here I go again.... Upate 3 April 2017: Have lost 98 pounds in 7 months, feeling fit, healthy, and positive as I near my goal weight and (yikes) maintenance. UPDATE December 2020: Back here, at 287 pounds this time. Am basically unable to walk. Going down stairs is a trial. I live in constant pain. I urgently need 2 knee replacements. I had zero cartilage left 2 years ago. Yet I obviously am too risky for them to operate on...I'm not even on the waiting list anymore. Only I can remedy that... Know that you can achieve great things. From the stars you were born--a billion years in the making--to the stars you shall return. So this is the blink of your extraordinary existence. So shine and soar like a spark in the night.

My goal is to bring the symptoms of PCOS under control so I can be fit and healthy for my family and my job.I want to look like the ballet teacher that I am. December 2020: my goal is to reach a weight where my knees can be replaced and I have the chance of living with less pain and improved mobility.

I am eating "clean" food if I can and have cut out sugar and sweeteners altogether. I have an active job but try to fit in swimming as much as I can. I'm am trying to make changes in my lifestyle that I'm realistically prepared to do forever ie/ I hate salads so I'm not going to force them down me now. I hate running so I've found alternatives that I will still want to do long term. This has to be for life this time...not just yet another quick fix.

I'm from Birmingham,England but have been living in the south of Spain for 20 years.I have danced all my life, everything from ballet to hiphop and was a professional dancer before injury and weight gain (due to PCOS) led me into teaching instead which I've now been doing for 30 years! I am separated and live with my 15 year old daughter. I am very guilty of putting everyones needs before my own and it is now time to realise that if I want to carry on being able to provide the needs of my family then I've got to put myself higher up the list of importance. When I came to Spain in 1996 I weighed 150 pounds (up from my dancers weight of 105 pounds).In 2005 I weighed 163 pounds and in 2011 reached my all high of 253 pounds.That's a lot of weight in a short time!! I worked hard to achieve it though!! Then I lost 121 pounds and then gained it all back until I reached a new high of 257 pounds in 2016. Once again lost 120 pounds, and yet here I am again entering 2021 at a new high of 287 poun

I am an only child and enjoy my own company although these days that tends to be a rare luxury. I adore reading and can't sleep until I've indulged in a few chapters at least.Favorite authors include Sarah Waters, Stephen King and Terry Pratchett. I love all kinds of music from heavy rock to jazz, from classical to hiphop. Favorites incluse Muse, Radiohead, Crowded House, Depeche Mode,Pink Floyd, Doors, Nick Cave, Prince, Oooffff...the list could go right down to Neil Diamond and Glen Cambell!! I used to love going to the theatre for ballet and musicals and to concerts but I now live in a culture black spot...here it's flamenco or nothing :( I live 15 minutes drive from the coast and a trip to the sea is like balm to my soul :)

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