I suffer from Extreme Lack of Motivation

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

I do. I go through times where I am all gung ho about something, and then digress into an abyss of just not caring.. I know we all go through this. I however lapse into some extreme form of dysfunction.

I put my food into the nutrition tracker everyday, and I am diligent about knowing my nutritional information from restaurants I frequent.. but after that.. my motivation plummets to the depths of despair.

So far, whoopee, I have lost exactly 20 pounds. I'd like to lose 20 more.

But, yanno.. I am just not as motivated as before... I was doing really great...

Until I had back to back really cruddy colds, the kind where exercise might kill you. I went to a doctor and he prescribed me Amoxicillain for the bronchial infection thing I had from coughing up a lung while at work.

He also asked me not to work out for 10 days... well that's all it took for me to fall off the mental retraining to exercise...


I read the forums here, but have stopped posting. I just cant do it. I am not an overly happy person, I think I'm fairly just right, but all the "motivation" on the forums here just seems so fake.
While reading post after post after post, the woe is me.. just gets depressing.. and then pops on a canned response... "You can do it", "Just stick with it", "Don't worry we have all done that, it gets better"...

I am a firm believer that venting is healthy. I am also a firm believer that each individual got its self to the overweight situation they are in.

No one made me eat this food, there is no excuse for it other than me.. There was no cheering squad there saying "EAT EAT EAT". I did that on my own, same as all of you.

I just cant see a whole world cheering for people to lose weight.

In my head it equates to, someone getting out of jail... and then calling all their friends.. and saying.. "Hey man I just got out of jail" .. and the guy on the other end of the phone line says.. "What do you want a cookie?" and hangs up..
The guy who just got out of jail is dumbfounded, he obviously thought the guy would be proud of him...

You weren't supposed to go to jail in the first place.. Its no big "good job you got out of jail" ..

Losing weight is the same, the only person it really matters to is you.

Maybe your doctor as he is getting PAID to care.. and your family, who wants you to live long enough to enjoy the fruits of your labor.

Sure I am pessimistic when I fall into this lack of motivation/angst/grumpy way. But, no matter what I feel those ways all the time.

I am however very proud of my mom for losing almost 30 whole pounds so far with spark people.
She falls into the family category thoe, and we should all care for our family and how their health is....

Anyways this was more rant than anything else..

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  • no profile photo GREENELINE
    Hmmm... what a refreshing point of view. I agree, and you gave me a bit of an epiphany. thanks. I am tired of making or using excuses for myself, but at the same time I don't think that the applause of others is going to give me that kick in the backside. The only thing that is going to motivate me is my own will and changing my own mindset. Personal goal setting, and just getting out there and doing it is what it is going to take.
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