a few minutes

So before I cram dinner down my kids throats so we can make it to their soccer games on time, I thought I would jump on here and catch up. Didn't realize that its been over 2 months since I blogged/journaled anything. So much for my list of "positive changes!" I reprinted them out and taped them to the outside of the cupboard door this time, obviously hidden on the inside of the cupboard door was rather pointless. I am still trying to figure out what I want to do healthwise - there are so many options out there, go natural, avoid the additives, all fruits & veggies, max protein, why does it have to be so hard??? I mean, yeah you can say, oh just eat healthy and exercise... yes, it is that "easy" but when we start to nitpick all the little nuances of fat free, sugar free, no sugar added, no trans fats, no high fructose corn syrup, soy, made with splenda, good ol' diet, unsweetened, no red dye, glucose free, all natural, etc.... enough to make your head split. So what is the way to go? Do I give up my Coke Zero? What do I do when I want my Cap't and coke??? lol Do I stop adding splenda to my coffee? I have to sweeten my coffee, do I add the calories and drink it with sugar? Sugar in the Raw? Honey? What about the fructose thing? That crap is in EVERYTHING! I check labels when I grocery shopping and it takes me three times as long! Seriously! I have to wonder how messed up my system is from all the changes, eliminations, additions, etc. that I have done the last year. I will always believe knowledge is power, but it is true that awareness can make a person go crazy. Is ignorance bliss? It can't be because my ignorance - and I mean IGNORE-ance is what got me up to 250. My awareness got me down to 150. So what is stopping me from 125? Am I still ignoring something or am I overwhelming it? hmmmmmmmmm.......