Time waits for no one, blah, blah, blah
Thursday, June 04, 2009
So I talked myself out of walking again today. Funny, I get my "gear" on and I start putting on my socks and shoes, all the while, there's that voice in my head, saying why waste the gas to drive to the park and walk in circles? Or why drive to the gym and sweat through a class when I could do my workout dvd's at home. So I sit. I type. I eat. I sit. I think about my workout dvd's but the kids are still sleeping, summer vacation and the expectations that I had are just that. My expectations. So I think about my expectations and realize that I'm disappointing myself! If I just let time flow and go with it then I wouldn't be sad or disappointed. I thought we would spend some quality time together without the bustle of school weighing down upon them but they stay up late and sleep all day. The hours go by. A day goes by, another week and I wonder why I talk myself out of being good to myself?! I will never have today back. I know that. My logical mind is saying get up, get out there, live. Then there's that other side, the dark side, the one that doesn't want to leave the house without a good excuse. The one who says well, you didn't lose any weight anyway, why bother taking a class or getting outside. It's that first step I take to go outside that is one that counts the most. If I can get myself out there I feel so much better. I really have some motivation behind me when I'm thinking of just doing it. It's when I'm facing personal challenges it gets more difficult to put on that happy mask and face the world. Funny, I always tell my kids to make the most of their time and be the best you can be everyday. I guess it's all about the time we spend. Either we just spend our time doing whatever, or we invest our time in making our lives better. Healthier, happier feeling energized because we know we invested that time well. I tell myself I'll go tomorrow when I should be telling myself I'll do it today! Right now, right this minute. Because I can. I can invest my time in myself because it's for sure no one else can do this for me. So to all of you out there looking for time. It's right here, right now. Reward yourself with good times. I'm going to cut up strawberries and exercise! Thank goodness that I can. Thank you all for sharing this journey with me and helping to see that when I'm alone typing away at my computer, you're all there. We're all on the same road... This bump in the road is a big one! But like all the others I'll ride it out and listen to the light side! Taking that first step! Enjoy every moment!!!