I need to out myself

Thursday, August 06, 2009

I joined SP last November, but I didn't' get serious about it until February. Since February I have lost 20 pounds. That may not seem like a lot, but for me it's huge. I've never had success on a diet before. I've tried them all and never lost more than 5 pounds of water weight.

I'll admit I was feeling mighty proud of myself. I was exercising more, making healthier food choices, hurting less and generally feeling better all around. Then 2 weeks ago I caught a bad cold. So I decided not to walk for a few days, just rest my body so I'd get better. Only I didn't' get better and soon the bad cold was a sinus infection, a nasty one. Now I'm home & in bed, definitely not exercising, but still eating pretty healthy since I had stocked my cupboards with healthy foot choices. Then my stove died. It was an old stove, lived a good life, time for it to pass on. I ordered a new one, but it took a week to come in. During that week, I lazed around trying to recuperate from the sinus infection and ate take out every night. I deserved it, right? I mean I was sick, I had no way to cook.

I got on the scale this morning & in those 2 weeks I have gained back 12 pounds. No one knows but me. My family & friends don't know. It's not like I went wild & ate bags of cookies & gallons of ice cream. There was really nothing to about my behavior that seemed alarming.

Now I'm ashamed. I don't want to admit how badly off track I got. And frankly, I'm a little dazed by how much havoc I managed to reek in 2 weeks

I know I need to just dust myself off & move on. I can't get back those 2 weeks, but I can undo the damage. But only if I start taking care of myself again.

So here I go. I've admitted my fall and now a much more humble me is ready to move on down the road.
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    That is what spark friends are for to help with the dusting and help you get back on track. Help you move it on down the road. Learning a new lifestyle takes time and unfortunately we all slip now an then

    Hugs Martha n TX

    Boo Crew on the move!!
    4154 days ago
  • WALNUT5612
    We all have gotten off track! The key is that 'anything that can go wrong will'. We just have to be aware that there will always be 'unwanted events' that throw us off track. We have to build our minds to be 'hurricane proof', to withstand these hurricanes.

    (((((hugs)))))) emoticon
    4174 days ago
    hi Paula,

    good for you getting back on track and taking care of yourself again. this time your ruby-lite sisters are here to help you. if you need encouragement or support, just post on the chat/support thread and someone will respond as soon as possible. keep on!! emoticon
    4188 days ago
    I have gained and lost...lost and gained..I know how you feel, but just don't give up and keep working at it. As I read someone here said recently..have more good days than bad and you'll reach your goal! :-)
    4189 days ago
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