I need to out myself
Thursday, August 06, 2009
I joined SP last November, but I didn't' get serious about it until February. Since February I have lost 20 pounds. That may not seem like a lot, but for me it's huge. I've never had success on a diet before. I've tried them all and never lost more than 5 pounds of water weight.
I'll admit I was feeling mighty proud of myself. I was exercising more, making healthier food choices, hurting less and generally feeling better all around. Then 2 weeks ago I caught a bad cold. So I decided not to walk for a few days, just rest my body so I'd get better. Only I didn't' get better and soon the bad cold was a sinus infection, a nasty one. Now I'm home & in bed, definitely not exercising, but still eating pretty healthy since I had stocked my cupboards with healthy foot choices. Then my stove died. It was an old stove, lived a good life, time for it to pass on. I ordered a new one, but it took a week to come in. During that week, I lazed around trying to recuperate from the sinus infection and ate take out every night. I deserved it, right? I mean I was sick, I had no way to cook.
I got on the scale this morning & in those 2 weeks I have gained back 12 pounds. No one knows but me. My family & friends don't know. It's not like I went wild & ate bags of cookies & gallons of ice cream. There was really nothing to about my behavior that seemed alarming.
Now I'm ashamed. I don't want to admit how badly off track I got. And frankly, I'm a little dazed by how much havoc I managed to reek in 2 weeks
I know I need to just dust myself off & move on. I can't get back those 2 weeks, but I can undo the damage. But only if I start taking care of myself again.
So here I go. I've admitted my fall and now a much more humble me is ready to move on down the road.