I found it!

My spark, my motivation.

You know how you suddenly have an epiphany, you get inspired, you're turned on, motivated? Nope, it didn't happen to me. It's been a long time since I've experienced that.

But what I realized yesterday is that I'm finally seeing results, that even without that inspiration, I've motivated myself to trudge through, one lousy ounce after another, until I finally feel different. I have no idea if anyone else can tell, but I feel it. My body looks and feels different to me.

And that's motivation to continue.