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A difficult day

Monday, October 05, 2009

I hate feeling sick, especially that undefinable kind of sick where you just want to crawl in bed, you're limp as a rag, but you can't explain what's wrong with you. That was my day yesterday.

For the first time in months, I had food cravings. Not that I could tell you what, in particular, I craved, but I wanted to be eating all day. I didn't, of course, but it was a struggle. And it hasn't been a struggle up until now. I snacked all day rather than eat big meals, and managed to stay within my range, but I was miserable doing it.

I know it was something physical, but emotionally I'm done in as well. My mother has started declining fast, and is now refusing any further treatment. The doctors have promised her she won't be in pain, but she isn't using morphine yet. I'm heading up there on Friday, and I wonder if it's the last time I'll see her. So many feelings there.....

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    I'm sorry to hear about your mom. Take care of yourself and just get through one day at a time. Do what needs to be done at the time and let the rest wait. We're here for you.
    4171 days ago
    I send wishes your way for your mother and for you in this very stressful time....I think your body was trying to tell you that you needed a little TLC...often we interpret that as a need for some sort of food....hang in there and make sure you do some good things for yourself while you're trying to help your mother. emoticon
    4172 days ago
  • JLITT62
    Sorry to hear you're struggling. I don't know what's going on with your mom, but obviously it's very stressful -- and yes, stress can contribute to not feeling well.

    Remember it's ok to feel our feelings, even the painful ones.
    4172 days ago
    I think you answered your own question of why you wanted to eat all day. Emotional eating. With what you are going through with your mom you want to eat. Maybe without knowning it, you wanted to comfort yourself with food. Just my two cents.

    Sorry about your mom.

    4172 days ago
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