Can I do this?
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I have written before that i want to finish the year strong. I must be just before success because I feel like I am not making enough progress.
I have 2 friends that I exercise with. They have both had great success recently. I don't feel like i have had that great of success. I also feel like I am standing in my own way with food.
So I have had a long "talk" with myself and I have decided to go with the NO SUGAR rule until the end of the year. I will allow for 5 treats. That should accomplish what I need to for the holidays. I feel a bit scared as I write that. But I felt so much better when I was doing that.
I also want to work on when I eat and eating planned foods. I am not doing as well on that as I should and I think it is affecting both my diabetes and my mood. So I will plan each day what I will eat and then record what I actually eat.
I will do better at taking my medication in the morning and evening.
I am increasing my walking goal to 12,000 steps. I usually can hit the 10,000 when I walk in the morning.
I will continue working on my spiritual goals and my goals to get my home in better order.
I am still working on a schedule that allows for weight training and yoga. I want to do those but, I have not been doing them very well. Ok at all.
I can do this. I feel empowered. I am going to keep a written log of my food. I will put the notebook in the kitchen and attach a pen to it. Then I will record every mouthful.
I will also eat on a smaller plate and only at the dining room table.
I really feel like I have let myself down by not doing a bit better at keeping my goals. I feel scared at the level of commitment that this will require. I feel angry that I have not done this in the past. Why am I still struggling with this? Why have I not solved this problem already. What is holding me back. Is there some reason i don't really want to do this. I am uncertain?
I am also going to write at least a page as to why before I eat anything that is not planned. With the exception of times that blood sugar is an issue. (Not a likely prospect.)