Almost...

Almost Halloween. Almost really hot outside. Almost ready to get fit and lose this weight! UGH! I've been so consumed with work stuff, trying to get back and ex stuff, going to court tomorrow and other mundane garbage that fills up my head and makes me talk myself out of doing what I need to do to take care of me! I have been getting a few days of exercising a week in but I need and want more! Does anyone but me find it addicting? The little soreness after lifting weights or walking further than the time before, it feels fabulous! Time marches on and waits for no one. Here I am, just had yet another birthday. Am I where I want to be. Hell NO! So who is going to get me where I want to be. Oh, that would be ME! Yes, everyone says don't wait for others to go with you to the gym or walking at the park but it feels like going to a movie alone. You're sitting there, laughing or crying and you're just there, alone. It's just my life I suppose and I should get used to it with the kids growing up and going out more but it seems like there are people everywhere saying they want to do things and then... where are they again? I'm guilty of putting off 'til tomorrow, things that need to be done today but sometimes it seems that tomorrow never comes. So I have court in the am tomorrow and then a visit to my ex's attorneys office. After that I'm working out. Alone. And it's okay. I just want to burn calories and sweat and feel better and stronger everyday. So it's just me. I'm almost talking myself into it! I know I'll do it! Besides no one else can get me where I need to be but me! It would be nice if we could all do it together but maybe that's what this is all about. We're doing this virtually! Aren't we? Almost...