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Thursday, March 04, 2010

Could it be that this minor illness is a blessing in disguise? That sounds almost blasphemous, especially on a fitness site. And yet I have learned so much from being sick this time...
Of course I've learned to be more patient. There is no choice but to learn that from Bell's palsy since it refuses to be placated and will take its own time. It's immune to feeble sacrifices and must have its full measure.
I've also learned about kindness. How miraculous is the thoughtfulness of the Spark nation, of colleagues at work and friends and neighbors. My teenagers! It has been an abiding wonder to see how surrounded I am by love and support.
But perhaps the most precious lesson was humility. To accept, finally, my "new" frailty has been harder than I'd like to admit. I'm used to doing, finishing, covering, coping, making it, patching it together, succeeding... And now, suddenly, my cover is blown. I have to admit---because half of my face is broadcasting that fact---that I have weaknesses, that I'm vulnerable, that I need help. I'm suddenly exposed, naked, bleeding.
The odd thing, the surprising thing, is how new, how promising, how exciting that feels. How full of portent and potential...
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  • SPRINGBELLE
    That is because you are now letting others in to do for you... Amazing how many people have watched all that you do and been inspired to be like you and waited a long time to be able to do something for you, like all the things you have done for others.

    It is a great gift to allow others to be kind to you, to do for you. It is very difficult for strong, independent people to become open to allow this, so sometimes an illness is the only way to open a strong person's eyes to all who are standing in their shadow waiting for an opportunity to shine.

    So glad to see you are finding your way to the sunny side of the street. The "Glad Game" rules, even in dark times!

    Perpetual Pollyanna signing off!
    4060 days ago
  • PAMMAX64
    You know, I was thinking Mary, you are planning on writing your FIRST Book on the wrong thing. You could help others who face illnesses see the world in a new way, which as you now, is so important when hope is hard to find.

    There are a lot of diseases/illnesses that force you to take life slower and expose the reality that - the person who previously was able to concur the world... just cant at this time. That is a hard thing to accept and deal with alone, even harder when it is apparent to all of those who you come in contact with.

    You are handling this so well. You may not feel like it, but you are. I think others could learn from you, that you could help thousands of others with your thoughful insight. Why dont you start just jotting notes about how you feel, what helped you come to the positive way in which you are dealing with this. I would not make it specific to Bell's Palsy, but just to any life-style threatening disease.

    Just a thought....
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    4060 days ago
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    I think understanding and realizing your limitations is half the battle. Keep up the good work.
    You inspire me!
    4060 days ago
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