A break today
Sunday, March 07, 2010
Today I'm taking a break. This may sound paradoxical since I haven't been working out. Despite my attempts to get better "fast" and to convince myself that I can do "just ten minutes," I haven't been able to do so much as march in place. So what am I taking a break from? How can I take a break if I haven't been doing anything?
Today I am officially taking a break from beating myself up. Every day that I wake up disappointed that I'm not better "yet," I do myself more harm than good. So I'm taking a break from that. A break from feeling guilty that my physical self has "let me down." A break from wanting to do what I can't. A break from expecting to will myself into feeling better. A break from trying to hurry things along. A break from feeling stress over all the things I'm not doing both at home and at work. A break from still trying to be the nurturer when I need to be nurtured. A break from feeling unhappy that things aren't going my way. A break from regret...