Thanks for all the comments ladies...but i am not sure i even believe in God...?

i do feel incredibly blessed..and i was raised in a Christian home....
and i was taught to believe in God..and i guess i sort of do..... just not maybe 100% like the Christian God........

i don't want to offend anybody and i KNOW that God is a great comfort to some.......but i have had real struggles with God and what not in the past.....

i am thankful for what i have...but fear a God that would take it all away...like testing Job for example.......

i am no Job.....i would renounce him in a second to save my family....

i wouldn't be happy at the end with my new wife, kids, house, money, etc.........(insert husband for wife.....)

i want what i have now...no testing me just for fun or to prove to Satan that there is somebody faithful enough......

i am not that person...

anybody watch the totally awesome T.V. series Kings? i am kind of like David in that...miracles around me....but could they have been something else.....? luck or fate or Jack Benjamin (the prince) staying off death for me.......?

Kings....man..i miss that show......

it had something for the most religious to the complete non-believer.....

and i..i am somewhere in between......

hugs to all
jamesgirl