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30 Days of proof-Can I do it?

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I am diabetic. I was happily on a medication that my insurance does not cover. I understand all the whys and wherefores but, that did not help that I personally had to get out of my comfort zone and find some other way to take care of myself.

I have been sticking my fingers several times a day for the last bit to give the insulin educator the numbers to find a starting point for me. My numbers have been very close to target. Over, but close. Today after our conversation she asked if I was willing to try changing some medicines around and reducing my carbohydrates. So this is what I am going to do. If during that 30 days I can get my numbers down to target through the changes in diet and meds I don't have to go on insulin. I can save that for later.

I have been talking to my friend about how I could have lost weight before on a diet and I just don't keep going. I have not exactly found the answer. But, I am going to treat myself like an unruly teenager and remind myself that I am going to eat the healthy foods anyway. So here I go proving to myself that I am in fact willing to put my money where my mouth is and keep going with my eating well.

I am setting up my world to make it easier. My family will have to learn to live with my weaknesses a bit and I will have to learn to live with some of their choices too. So here we go on a new adventure.

I have reset all my trackers and I am going to clean out the fridge and cupboards. I am strong and I really want this. I can do it.

Any thoughts, encouragement or prayers welcome. I know that insulin is an amazing lifesaver. I just don't know that I am ready to do that.
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    You can do it, I know you can. You've come so far and have such great insight already. You can eat half a tortilla and stop and not eat anymore for the day. If you can do that, I think you can reduce those carbs without too much trouble. That isn't nearly as hard as leaving food on your plate :) Lately you've been my inspiration. I stopped eating after one bowl of soup for dinner because I was full and if you could stop, so could I.
    3755 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    I am sure if you do everything right an really stick to a prescribed plan, I'm sure your #'s will come down. We just don't do it.

    So, I'm here for you, saying you can do it. I will try right along with you. i have not been eating like a diabetic lately and my #'s show it. They are going up and I don't like it and I KNOW I can control them and I just don't.

    Here's to US~! emoticon
    3755 days ago
  • GALSAL59
    I like the statement about "unruly teenager". Go for it, full speed ahead!

    3755 days ago
  • FITKAT2010
    I'm going to say it straight here hon: Your life depends on you doing this. Whatever it takes JUST DO IT. Whatever reasons you trip over STOP IT. This isn't just a couple of vanity pounds, it is your body telling you you are on the path to self destruction if you don't. Yes, you have to face the fears, pain, abandonment and rebelliousness issues that are causing you to go off program. So, again, JUST DO IT!

    3755 days ago
    You certainly are in my thoughts and prayers! You have a REAL reason to lose the weight, so much more than "I want to look good in a bathing suit."

    I know your family will rally round when they know how important this is to your health and your life.

    Good luck as you start this new challenge.
    3755 days ago
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