30 Days of proof-Can I do it?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I am diabetic. I was happily on a medication that my insurance does not cover. I understand all the whys and wherefores but, that did not help that I personally had to get out of my comfort zone and find some other way to take care of myself.
I have been sticking my fingers several times a day for the last bit to give the insulin educator the numbers to find a starting point for me. My numbers have been very close to target. Over, but close. Today after our conversation she asked if I was willing to try changing some medicines around and reducing my carbohydrates. So this is what I am going to do. If during that 30 days I can get my numbers down to target through the changes in diet and meds I don't have to go on insulin. I can save that for later.
I have been talking to my friend about how I could have lost weight before on a diet and I just don't keep going. I have not exactly found the answer. But, I am going to treat myself like an unruly teenager and remind myself that I am going to eat the healthy foods anyway. So here I go proving to myself that I am in fact willing to put my money where my mouth is and keep going with my eating well.
I am setting up my world to make it easier. My family will have to learn to live with my weaknesses a bit and I will have to learn to live with some of their choices too. So here we go on a new adventure.
I have reset all my trackers and I am going to clean out the fridge and cupboards. I am strong and I really want this. I can do it.
Any thoughts, encouragement or prayers welcome. I know that insulin is an amazing lifesaver. I just don't know that I am ready to do that.