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Friday, June 18, 2010

I imagine that if I could wave a magic wand and be my best self in an instant I would be able to handle family picnics and I would have appropriate hunger and be able to eat what I wanted and have the right balance of foods and treats. I would be thin and my blood sugar would show good numbers all the time. Eating would not feel stressful no matter what the situation was. I could eat with anyone and with any food present and not have all the worries that I feel right now.

Well, here is where I am really at. I want not to go on insulin. I want to feel good and have good blood sugar control. I want at some point in the future to arrive at my goal weight. I need to do everything in my power to make these things happen. Saturday is a family reunion. I have made healthy foods in the past that really weren't that well received. I was thinking that I could make a big salad and share But, I really don't have the money to do it that way. So I am going to find a gladware and make myself a good chef salad. Then I am going to chew some gum and make the usual family favorites. I am going to bypass the food tables except to help my son get food and just eat what I brought for me.

I hope that in the future I will be able to go back to sharing the food in a healthy manner. But for right now I need to do what is best. I am trying to prove to myself and the doctor that I can cut back on my carbs and get my blood sugar under control. I need to do this right now and not worry about the extra stuff. I am doing my best to set my life up in a way that is practical and supportive. This is no small feat I have kids and stuff going on. I can be strong an do what needs to be done. I will get stronger and learn how to live life well and thin.
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    Good on you for bringing a dish for yourself knowing what was going to be there. Sometimes we need to be a little selfish and work on ourselves so we can be better people for the long haul. Hope it went well and thanks for the add :)
    3752 days ago
  • NANCY-
    I hope today went well for you.
    The situation you are in really rots. You should definitely give yourself credit for developing a plan for today.
    I attend a diabetes support group and some of the members have had to go onto insulin, but have much better control now.
    3754 days ago
    Make those good choices. If you aren't going to be able to choose what you want and need, then make wise choices otherwise.
    3754 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    If your family gives you grief over eating properly, tell them it's a life or death situation and your doctors orders, after all it really is.

    GOOD LUCK... emoticon Determination and preparation go a long way!

    3754 days ago
    Aww, you're going to be doing what you did when you were little. Eating just a bit at the party and then going off to have fun and I do hope you have fun. I hope there are more than a few kindred souls that you can enjoying being with and that you will enrich each other's day.
    Can't wait to hear how it went.
    3754 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/18/2010 4:57:09 PM
    You can do it. I am proud of the choice you have made. I will pray for you.
    3754 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5959732
    If you waved that magic wand and it was all instant, you would miss all of the wonders of the journey to get there. Embrace the journey and you will get there.
    3755 days ago
    I haven't stopped forcing healthier foods on the family. If I cook they just have to live with it. What I have done though is try to find healthier ways of fixing foods they do like. Fried chicken is now oven fried. Chicken strips are home made and oven fried. Meat loaf is made from turkey. Next time I make the enchiladas they all love it will be greek yogurt inside instead of sour cream. And there are things, like those enchiladas, that I just have to accept will never be completely healthy, but since I enjoy it too, I can do something to make it healthier and then still enjoy it occasionally. You have goals and you are working towards them. Eventually you will create that ideal that you are looking for. I've known several people who have gotten themselves off the insulin once there. It takes work, but I know you can do it!!
    3755 days ago
    You should read "The China Study" by T. Colin Campbell. It has great information on how our diet affects us, including diabetes.
    3755 days ago
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