THE MAGIC WAND
Friday, June 18, 2010
I imagine that if I could wave a magic wand and be my best self in an instant I would be able to handle family picnics and I would have appropriate hunger and be able to eat what I wanted and have the right balance of foods and treats. I would be thin and my blood sugar would show good numbers all the time. Eating would not feel stressful no matter what the situation was. I could eat with anyone and with any food present and not have all the worries that I feel right now.
Well, here is where I am really at. I want not to go on insulin. I want to feel good and have good blood sugar control. I want at some point in the future to arrive at my goal weight. I need to do everything in my power to make these things happen. Saturday is a family reunion. I have made healthy foods in the past that really weren't that well received. I was thinking that I could make a big salad and share But, I really don't have the money to do it that way. So I am going to find a gladware and make myself a good chef salad. Then I am going to chew some gum and make the usual family favorites. I am going to bypass the food tables except to help my son get food and just eat what I brought for me.
I hope that in the future I will be able to go back to sharing the food in a healthy manner. But for right now I need to do what is best. I am trying to prove to myself and the doctor that I can cut back on my carbs and get my blood sugar under control. I need to do this right now and not worry about the extra stuff. I am doing my best to set my life up in a way that is practical and supportive. This is no small feat I have kids and stuff going on. I can be strong an do what needs to be done. I will get stronger and learn how to live life well and thin.