WTF is wrong with me?!--Bad weekend

Ugh. This weekend was horrible. I didn't lose any weight. I GAINED weight. I OVERATE on CRAPPY food. I didn't workout..It was HORRIBLE, and who's the blame??? ME!
I AM(grammatically correct)!

I can't quite figure out what's going on with me right now. I feel like I may be depressed, but I don't know why I would be. There's nothing significant, that I can think of, that would trigger these feelings. I could be tired and stressed out, but over what? I'm not sure, but I really need to get my butt up and do SOMETHING about this weight before it gets too out of hand and I end up where I started last year. I just don't know HOW in the WORLD I let myself go through this again. I feel like OPRAH when she regained her weight and she said, "I can't believe I'm still talking about this." Even after I have learned so much about the right/healthy way to be fit and healthy, I just BLEW it and now I have to find the motivation from some invisible place to keep going. I just want to be happy again like I was last year..I want to be confident and comfortable in my clothes and with myself. HOW COULD I LET THIS HAPPEN?


I know this blog may sound like a bunch of senseless babble, but I promise it makes sense(maybe only in my mind). There is some reason in all the madness. This week is a new week, and hopefully, I'll be able to find a new attitude along with it.