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I really don't know what my problem is......

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

I can't even keep track of the number of times I have announced "I am starting over!" when it comes to weight loss. Sometimes I will do really well for the first couple of weeks, freshly motivated to take this challenge on. More often then not, though, I never even make it that far. I never get past the "thinking about it" part to the "actively doing something about it" part. I have all these reasons as to why I want to lose the weight, but it seems like nothing really, truly motivates me. If it did, you would think I'd be out there exercising, rather than sitting here at the computer. Even the fact that my boyfriend and I are talking marriage hasn't pushed me to going for my goal. And I know I don't want to walk down the aisle in a size twenty or larger wedding dress. I just can't figure out what it is that is keeping me from getting up off my lazy bum and actually trying. The only reason I can think of, is that deep down somewhere inside I'm scared. Whether it's that I'm scared of how other people will treat me, or if it's that I'm scared I will look too different and my boyfriend will no longer be attracted to me, or what, I don't know. I just really hope I get this figured out soon.
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  • VAMPIRATZ
    Thank you guys, I really needed to hear the encouraging words.

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    3864 days ago
  • SAMI199
    Fear-F**8 everything and Run. I also struggle with my past failures @ weight loss.I can not even tell you how many important events have come & gone without success.I really think @ this point my main fear is of failing AGAIN. I cringe @ the look in my husbands eye -the look of "Sure-another diet..." Then there's the rest of my skinny family...
    This time it is for me & only me-not a occasion-not for them-not to fit into a dress-just for me&that's enough right now.
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    3866 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8248944
    Hey,
    From all the Diets and "lifestyles" out there, there is only one thing that matters.
    Your Happiness.
    You need to do what's right for you and if you are strong you will be able to accomplish anything. Its completely logical to be scared about this. Its a big change and it will change every aspect of life for you and not just with eating.
    The biggest thing is your happiness and i am sure your friends and especially your boyfriend want to see you happy!
    So do what makes you happy and if that is really sticking to the spark this time around then you go for it and all of us here (including your friends) will be here for you.
    I wish you happiness.

    _/|\_

    3867 days ago
  • LIPSTICKMESSIAH
    I completely understand where you're coming from. It's like there's a step missing in between thinking about losing weight and actively doing it. You may be right that being scared is holding you back. For me, I was scared how my friends would react, if they'd be supportive or just give me empty compliments, or worse, make fun.

    But if you want to lose weight and be healthy, you have to put aside what you think other people want/expect from you and do it for yourself! I'm sure your boyfriend will love you no matter what, and he could even be a big support for you if you let him know that this is what you want.

    I hope everything works out and if you ever get discouraged, you always have your fellow SPers to fall back on! =)
    3867 days ago
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