Monday, January 17, 2011
Today is the day. I've been waiting for this for almost 2 years now. I should say I've been working on this for two years now. My business is starting. I'm contacting business owners for my new online advertising company. There are so many scary ideas running through my head. I've tried to explain to so many what I'm feeling, but somehow I think it is really hard for others to understand. I was talking to my brother last night and I said I look around at everyone I know and I don't think they know what this feels like. To create something new, that didn't exist for local businesses before. I'm a young woman...are business owners going to take me seriously? Will they trust me? Will they want to hear what I have to say? Are they going to think I'm a joke?
After talking to my brother, I realized there was one person that would understand....my father. He fought to start his own company and his whole livelihood was dependent on it being successful. He was able to understand every single one of my feelings. He was able to make me feel understood and loved. He told me that he was proud of me for doing something that most people wouldn't do, whether the business is successful or not, I've already won because I've built character.
It was great to hear such unconditional love from my dad. He made me feel so special. He also made me realize that if I wasn't a nervous wreck that I wouldn't be normal. Yes! Thank you! That's what I needed to hear. What I'm feeling right now doesn't need to be changed...it is what it is supposed to be. This is THE most exciting time in my life thus far and these are the feelings that come with it.
Wish my luck my Spark supporters! Love you guys!