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Feeling a bit closer to my best self.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Yesterday I was feeling awful. I did not want to do anything or really continue on my journey to better healthy and better self.

I was hoping to a bit of cleaning and then some quilting. Well, my kids slept in and I kind of wanted to sit at the computer and play video games or some other nothing kind of activity. Well, instead I started cleaning in my room. All kinds of stuff had been dumped in there. To go through later. Well I started sorting and then some how ended up cleaning my closet and folding unfolded laundry that had just been thrown in there.

I have a small pile of baggy pants that I am getting rid of. Shirts that are too big too. I am not sure I like the new look completely. You can still tell I have weight to lose. But, my DH and my friend say that it looks better. So I guess I will trust them and wear better looking clothes. I asked my husband if I really should get rid of the baggy pants. His answer was of course I told you that about 6 months ago. I think he is exaggerating but, he has never said Why are you buying new clothes. That is just the voice in my head.

I am making good progress. Even if I am not perfect I am moving in the right direction. I like that I can do that. I am not off track I just took a detour.

I am noticing that the things I am avoiding doing are not as bad as I think that they are going to be. . . Just taking it a bit at a time. I can lose weight a bit at a time too. I hope.

Even if the journey seems so slow that I am not always sure I am moving.
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  • NANCY-
    Sometimes it takes a bit for us to realize the changes that have happened as a result of our consistency. You have made changes in what you do, now the changes are being reflected in your body. Sure it wasn't overnight ... it was gradual, subtle, but the changes happened when you were not looking. Remember where you were? (read some old blogs, try on those clothes) Take a honest look at where you are now!!!
    Your efforts are paying off.
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    3479 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    Glad you are doing better. Why keep something that will not fit.? Way to go one getting to a smaller size.
    3479 days ago
  • JSPEED4
    From your quotes:
    There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
    so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
    --a return to love - Marianne Williamson

    I think your husband is not shy about being wonderful. emoticon

    I recycle the material in older clothes. Still, if they are in great shape, others might need them more than I do.
    3479 days ago
  • SNOOKUMS19
    Good for you! Have a great time shopping! You'll feel better once you donate those clothes. Have a great night!
    3479 days ago
  • GINGERSTX2STEP
    i think that what we are doing or trying to do here is for me at least way out of my comfort zone. We as women in the church are taught to give service to do our callings and to take care of our families. I tend to forget To take care of me. I also like allot of my old habits, fried food, candy bars, junk, not taking time to exercise and to track it or to track what i am eating. all of this takes time and effert. i was ready in the scriptures sat and it said to not worry about tomorrow. I also read where it said there is a time and a season for everything.
    this is a time for ginger to take care of ginger to learn about myself and to take care of myself..this is so hard and so foreign for me, that it does not feel right. but my energy is up and my self esteem is up and I am down a pants size.
    We are presious daughters of our heavenly Father we are created in his image and part of our test is to learn to control ourselfs in all ways.taking care of our bodies is a huge one..
    i smoked for years. quite right before i joined the church. it was the hardest thing i had to do "up to that point" but you know you don't buy anymore, you don't go around people that smoke. How do you do that with food?????
    this is a huge thing we are all on a path of learning and it is hard food is such a huge part of our church and such a huge part of our lives.. to eat right and to exercise and do right is not only hard it takes knowledge and skill and will power.
    I am so honored to have meet you and got to know you..you are a great leader and a great person. Pam you will have down days we all will but I want you to know yo have touched my life and you have lifted me up and I am greatful to know you are too only human...
    the cloths throw away, holding onto them is like holding on to a fear of not succeeding and i honestly do not believe you will fail in this.. nor will i nor others on this team why cause we got the Lord , the church and sparks and each other. as long as we are posting blogs, talking, trying to track them we are going forward the only failure is not trying...
    it is not failing to slip or to not fell like it today.. that is human.... just me ging emoticon
    3479 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4363972
    Good for you! My DD just moved back home. She had clothes at two other places besides here and she had a bunch stored away 'until it fit'. She finally went through it all and found that she had skipped right over a size and most of the stuff stored until it fit was now too big. I have 6 trash bags full of clothes that we are donating to the Vietnam Vets.

    It is good to get rid of the bigger clothes and wear things that fit. We are often too critical of ourselves - go with what your DH and friend are telling you.
    3479 days ago
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