I looked out the window and what did I learn?
Monday, April 04, 2011
Right before I accomplish big things I want to quit. Because to me it seems that I am not accomplishing much. I do this so much that when I was in labor with my 6th child and said I don't want to do this any more. My husband told the nurse that she needed to hurry and get the doctor in there IMMEDIATELY. (She argued a bit and the doctor got there just barely in time to catch my little guy).
I am ready for spring. It has been gloomy of late and I would like some sun. It just sounds good to walk in the sunshine and hear the birds chirping, smell fresh cut grass all the all the joys of summer.
Saturday that was a sunny break from the rain. I looked outside and noticed some of the trees have leaves. Others have tiny leaves and some still look like they think it is winter. But, before I know it those all the trees in my yard will have full leaves and some will have beautiful blooms.
As I go on this journey right now I may be that dormant tree that does not yet have any leaves but quicker than I realize I will be changed. In small ways at first but then in bigger ways as time progresses.
I am so close to what I weighted 5 years ago. This is the time that I have turned back in the past. I will continue. I am determined to keep moving forward.
It is not important how fast I make this journey. Just that I take it. So I am starting no sugar again. Having it on Sundays is not working right now. So I am going to put that on hold for a bit and see how many days I can go without sugar.
Let's see what I can do today.