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I looked out the window and what did I learn?

Monday, April 04, 2011

Right before I accomplish big things I want to quit. Because to me it seems that I am not accomplishing much. I do this so much that when I was in labor with my 6th child and said I don't want to do this any more. My husband told the nurse that she needed to hurry and get the doctor in there IMMEDIATELY. (She argued a bit and the doctor got there just barely in time to catch my little guy).

I am ready for spring. It has been gloomy of late and I would like some sun. It just sounds good to walk in the sunshine and hear the birds chirping, smell fresh cut grass all the all the joys of summer.

Saturday that was a sunny break from the rain. I looked outside and noticed some of the trees have leaves. Others have tiny leaves and some still look like they think it is winter. But, before I know it those all the trees in my yard will have full leaves and some will have beautiful blooms.

As I go on this journey right now I may be that dormant tree that does not yet have any leaves but quicker than I realize I will be changed. In small ways at first but then in bigger ways as time progresses.

I am so close to what I weighted 5 years ago. This is the time that I have turned back in the past. I will continue. I am determined to keep moving forward.

It is not important how fast I make this journey. Just that I take it. So I am starting no sugar again. Having it on Sundays is not working right now. So I am going to put that on hold for a bit and see how many days I can go without sugar.

Let's see what I can do today.
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    You're so insightful, Pam. What a great and hopeful analogy. The rebirth Spring promises. I hope I'm a dormant tree, too! I identify so much with this post (except the giving birth 6Xs part! :-)

    It is a daily, meal-by-meal and temptation-by-temptation struggle. The only way that I am successful is by sticking to an eating schedule of 5 small meals. And, this week, has been a brilliant example of what NOT to do! Ugh.

    But I'll start again, right now. Because that is the only way I know for sure I won't fail. Today remains unwritten. At its conclusion, I may not be successful. But I'm starting it right because I am not giving up. "Let's see what I can do today." Very clever, Pam. I really like that the most.

    Thank you!
    3463 days ago
    Way to go! Had no idea you've given birth 6 times. That's amazing! If you can do that you're gonna knock this one outta the park. emoticon
    3463 days ago
  • NANCY-
    I love your analogy. All the trees will produce leaves, unless they are dead. The leaves come in their own time.
    You are doing what is right for you. You Rock!!!!!
    3464 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    I know you can do it. One day a a time. Ihave given up candy for lent working well.
    3464 days ago
    Good for you. I really don't miss sugar when I give it up-- after that first month-- but it calls me from time to time. Ask the family for help and get the sugar out of the house for the month. Except for Easter, they will probably cooperate. One of the things I did when I didn't want candy sitting around the house is buy the candy, get some big zip bags and divide it up between the kids. They could negotiate and have or not have candy and they were fine. They had their own junk food stash and didn't leave it out to call to me and I didn't have open bags waving their openness around and wantonly crinkling when touched. I didn't miss it either.

    Take a couple shopping and buy one bag of each kind they like, divide it up and put in the baskets of the little ones, give the big ones their own (unless you do egg hunts like I do) and give them the rest.
    3465 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4363972
    Good for you!
    3465 days ago
    You can do it! Recognising the patterns in ourselves is one of the first steps. Isn't it amazing watching the trees come to life. I didn't notice it so much where I used to live as so much of our vegetation was evergreen. I love 4 distinct seasons!
    3465 days ago
    I often forget that spring arrives here much sooner than much of the country and was actually shocked (only for a moment) to see so much snow on the outdoors pics from conference. But, even here, I was surprised when I realized how green our trees were getting and how much is coming up in our garden. Spring is a time of renewal and you've powered through the gloomy winter and gotten closer to your goal, when spring hits you are going to be ready and accomplish so much!!
    3465 days ago
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    One day at a time! emoticon
    3465 days ago
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