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Fighting my way out of the darkness

Thursday, July 07, 2011

My day started with my head in a black cloud. I went to work pissy. I spent most of the day pissy and crying. Then Bridget came to my rescue. I told her how I wanted to just say screw it all and head to McDonalds for some greasy, disgusting failure food and she talked me down from the ledge. Then she told me to stop b*tching about not getting my strength training in and told me to just do it already! Then she texted me again to see if I'd done it. And just like that, I laughed for the first time all day. It was a nice change from all the crying and weepiness.

I did my strength training and texted her back. And when I got home, it took me from 7:30 till just before 11pm, but I got in 3 cardio videos. I do feel a lot better right now. At least for tonight, I know I'll go to bed with a little less dark around me. And I'm going to fight like hell to get completely out from under this cloud! I hate myself when I feel like this, and I know I'm no fun to be around either.

Thank you to everyone who commented and shared their support with me. Finally, some HAPPY tears today! Each and every one of you are important to me and I know there's no way I'd have made it as far as I have without each and every one of you. Thank you, my dear friends.

I'm fighting back! I WILL make it through this! And if I snap at anyone, let me apologize in advance. lol I still love you!

Again, thank you. I'll make it out of this sooner or later (I'm hoping for sooner).
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    We all have those black clouds around us but its the Bridget's in the world that makes it easier to handle them. Great that you didn't succumb to McDonalds. emoticon
    3569 days ago
    Whoever this Bridget is, she sounds awesome. Is she taking applications?

    Seriously though, YOU are freaking awesome for saying no! AND to get in so much exercise to boot?!

    You go girl. You climb like you've never climbed before.

    3571 days ago
    3571 days ago
  • BRDGT262
    Your drill sergeant is here, lol!!! I am soooo proud of you for not going to McDonald's yesterday!!! You woulda been crying for sure then, and then you woulda felt like puking...cause that greasy food would have just upset your stomach!!!! You made some awesome choices yesterday and now you can be proud today!!!! Great job getting in your videos last night, I know today can only be better!!! So.....what are your goals for today, you will have to let me know what you do!!! :)
    3571 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Way to make yourself do it! You are motivating me to make sure I get some working out in today!!
    3571 days ago
  • FAITH0405
    You are so strong, and don't even see it sometimes!! YOU CAN DO THIS, YOU CAN AND WILL BEAT IT!! HUGS!!

    3571 days ago
    I'm so proud of you!!!!
    3572 days ago
    BLECH why go heading for greasy icky nastiness when it will only make you feel worse?? Best thing to do is come to those who will support you (Yay for Bridget) and that will lead you to the light!
    3572 days ago
  • TISHA80
    emoticon I'm glad you are fighting! :)
    Bridget is awesome! She is a great SparkFriend. I'm so glad she was able to help you.
    Good job skipping the McDonalds and getting in your ST and cardio! I know you said Bridget made you do it, but she couldn't actually force you to. You did that yourself, so give yourself some credit, too.
    I hope things are much brighter, when you wake up in the morning! Let me know if you ever need to talk. You are a wonderful SparkFriend and you're always there to support me. I am glad to return the favor. :)
    3572 days ago
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