Its just one of those days that a girl goes through
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I dont know whats up with me today. I am blaming it on the lack of sun here in Washington state but I have been so unmotivated. Between that and being hormonal I can't think about anything in a right mind right now. I lost two more pounds and I was excited for half a day. Now I am just blah. I miss having a significant other and am still not over my last relationship. I miss having my mom around cause she'd be so proud of me and I try to imagine her looking down from heaven but its not the same as picking up the phone.
Being 30 single and loosing weight isnt easy. I want to date but as I told a friend today I try to talk everyone into coffee dates because I dont have nice clothes. I refuse to buy nice clothes when I just keep changing sizes. I talk to guys (online cause thats what dating has turned into) and tell them things like I workout and hike and have made a huge lifestyle change. They dont seem to understand that means I am not perfect that I am no skinny girl but I am strong and getting stronger. It is exhausting hoping for the right guy to come along and get all this. It is exhausting to workout right now but at least I am accomplishing that. Sometimes I feel like giving up on it all. But at least this is helping me. The working out and being healthy. The dating is just confusing the heck outta me lol
So while I didnt do my stairmaster today as I planned I did workout and tomorrow is a hike that will kick my but. Hopefully I will be feeling better soon. Hopefully its just one of those days.