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Thursday, October 06, 2011

I 'm not much for writing about my feelings and stuff, but it's worth a try. It might help. So this is Week 1 for me being active in a weight loss competition of any sort. I've tried a million diets in the past, but I always found a way to sabotage myself after either small successes or for success coming too slowly. So I realized that perhaps if I involved other people who are also in a similar place, perhaps that could help me stay on track. I have found that I don't so much mind letting myself down, but I really hate letting other people down. I'm sure that's not healthy, but that's how it's been.

So, here goes. I want to lose a lot of weight. I'm turning 30 in less than a month and after years and years of wanting to be thin, I think I owe it to myself this year to at least get under 200 by my birthday. That is my current motivation more than anything else I think. I don't have much time, but I was 208 on the scale this morning, so it actually is do-able. I would be happy waking up November 1 and seeing 199 on the scale. I mean that seriously would make my day een if I don't have a party or even a cupcake. And then it would mark the beginning of a new era for me. Not only would I be a year older, but hopefully that much wiser also because it will show that I had actually been able to accomplish something this year that I had not been able to do last year.

So I'm excited. A little scared of failure too, but mostly excited. If I can just learn to cope with the other ups and downs in my life without turning to food for comfort, I think I just might make it.
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  • EBIELOU
    Goodluck and welcome to spark people! This community is awesome!
    2903 days ago
  • SETAGOAL1
    We now know we are the only ones that can

    make it happen for us.

    We have the power to succeed or fail.

    We have chosen to succeed.

    Way to Go My Sparkfriend

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    2904 days ago
  • ANDEENNATE
    Welcome to sparkpeople!
    2904 days ago
  • USMAWIFE
    Welcome to SP and your lifestyle change. Hope you meet your birthday goal
    2904 days ago
  • no profile photo ISHQBINA
    Spark poeple has helped so many of us as long as we are willing, motivated and focused, even on those blah days. You can do it and there are so many of us willing to support you :)
    2904 days ago
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