Help Me Understand!!!
Sunday, May 06, 2012
I'm a little lost right now and mind is wondering!!! I'm pissed right now but NOT only with myself BUT my husband as well!!!!! I for the life of me can't understand why he JUST keeps bringing my favorites into the house for me!!?????
I mean I've been fighting this battle for a long time now and my I add still at a battle with myself every day!! You say you understand but yet you bring my favorite foods into the house!! You say I'm on your side and YOU can do it but you bring my favorites in the house. You say, mix your workouts up and you see me going to the gym workout and come home and you have something NOT healthy waiting for me to eat!!!! You can see I've made some changes in foods when you look into the frig......so tell me WHY are you still walking into the house with some of my favorites!!! This is still...with the changes I made...still a battle for me I'm NOT where I need OR want to be right now!!
I'm sure you're thinking well you don't have to eat it...TRUE but remember these are foods that I love and I'm not where I need to be mentally!! It's a work in progress but I'm struggling right now and I'm fighting to do the right things!! He knows I want to be much thinner by vacation time in August so why.....why are you doing this!!??? That's my only question!! I thought he wanted to see me healthier, thinner, and reached my goals! But I'm not too sure about that! I've even told him that since you have diabetes you sure change up your diet and exercise with me! Has he done it....NO!! I feel like the walls are closing in on me cause I don't have a supportive cast around me at work or home!!! I can say this...my 14 year old son supports me pretty well and I do believe he's one of the reasons why I havent given up! I can go to the gym and he'll have my dinner my healthy dinner waiting for me! Plus I'll pick him up one day out of the week and he works out with me!! For this...I will not give up! I'll keep fighting this battle and reach my goal even if my husband really doesn't want me to reach my goals as he says he does!!! I'll get to the finish line one way or another!!!!