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I am overcoming self doubt.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

I once heard Dr. Phil say that past behavior is a good predictor of future behavior. I thought I agreed with him. I think it can be. Sometimes that helps us make choices. But, I also believe in the ability to change. We do not spend our whole lives acting like we did when we were 2 or 12 or 20 or 30. I am 46 now and I hope I will look back at this and realize all that I have learned when I am 80 or 90 or maybe REALLY old. .

I currently weigh about 80 pounds or so less than my highest weight. I have weighted less than I do right now. I have gained a bit more than this too. But I have never regained to my highest. I have been using the statement by Dr. Phil to beat myself up. I say mean things like I can never hope to change. I really let myself doubt that i can make it to my biggest goal weight. I would love to have a normal BMI. I am good at looking about 20 pounds into the future. I get there and I creep back to where I am now. Then I do things right and get lower and creep back up a bit.

I beat myself up over this and sometimes reaffirm the belief that I cannot succeed. Today I realized that many people that have lost weight have regained the weight lost and more. I have regained at times but not the "and more" I am well under my highest.

Also if somehow I am going to veer off the path I at some point have to get back on. I continue to get back on and work towards my goals. I may be taking a long time to get to the goal. But, I am still moving forward. I might want to move faster to the goal. But, I will not accomplish anything bhy beating myself up for not moving faster already.

So I am reaffirming with this blog my commitment to staying on the trail. I decided I need a reminder affirmation. I have been a scout leader and love the scout oath. So my "mantra" will be "On my honor I promise myself that I will make the best choices for my health today."

That helps me to realize that I only have to step for today and I only have to be concerned with today. I cannot lose big in one day. But that is not the point. I hope that this will help me to enjoy the journey.
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  • MACMOM57
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  • NANCY-
    You are making deliberate changes. sure it is easy to fall back into the familiar, but I can feel that you are on a journey to develop and maintain a healthy lifestyle. Look back where were you a year ago? Any changes? Exercising more, consuming more veggies?Developing good sleep habits, stress management? You can be proud of your accomplishments and you have goals that you want to achieve. Sure it sometimes may seem that no change has happened, but sutble changes are taking place. I love your mantra! did you have a mantra a year ago? I know you have changed much this past year and will continue to.
    2860 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    Not that Dr. Phil is my favorite person, but I think he means we can get in a rut. We all ate too much for a long time to gain weight. If you don't pay attention to your eating and exercise, yes it will come back. Coming here is a hugh step to change past behavior. You are here to change your habits and improve yourself and you obviously are changing for the better. You keep doing what you are doing one step at a time! emoticon
    2860 days ago
    You are doing well! I find reading blogs from people who've lost a lot more weight than I need to lose very inspiring. I bet you would too. 4AHEALTHYBMI has lost 185 pounds! Indygirl has lost over 200! Just search for their pages. Sometimes I find someone who's especially interesting or inspirational and I read their blogs from their very first one to the present. It takes a lot of time, sometimes days -- but it helps to inspire me and make me feel that if they can do it so can I. AND, so can you! They are just ordinary people who got sick & tired of being sick and tired. I hope this idea helps. Keep walking the walk, FB, remember, you have to fake it 'til you make it!
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    2861 days ago
    Atta Girl! You're doing great. One step at a time is the only way to get anywhere.
    2861 days ago
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