Starting over isn't easy

If I'm really serious about losing these annoying 15 lbs and getting back in shape I have to finally commit to starting over again. And making that commitment means holding myself accountable and actually keeping track of whatever it is I'm doing.

My whole routine has become so loose and all over the place. Some days I only eat one actual meal but lots of snacks, other days I'll have 3 meals that are probably too large in the portion department. I've been eating out too often (not fast food but restaurants which is just as bad sometimes) and eating too many sweets in between and after meals. On top of that, my workout regimen is completely non-existent and I can't even remember when the last time was that I actually had any type of regular workout schedule. I walk all the time (on average 40 minutes to an hour at least 6 days a week) but that still doesn't take the place of heart pumping, muscle toning workouts.

I desperately need structure again. I need to make somewhat of a plan and try to follow through. Some key things that have always helped me in the past and that I know will help me again are:

-Working out. Plain and simple I need to exercise again. Completing a 40 minute workout DVD 3-5 days a week really isn't a lot to ask of myself.

-Stocking up on healthy snacks. KEEP TRACK of whatever sweets and less healthy snacks I do eat.

-Counting calories and pre-planning meals as often as possible

That's it. Seems so simple and in theory it really is. But getting back into those simple little habits when they're no longer habitual is a pain in the a$$ to be perfectly honest. However I know whenever I do get back into more of a structured routine, I will feel so good about myself, and that of course will make it well worth the aggravation and cranky mood swings I may be experiencing in the beginning.

I just completed Turbo Jam Cardio Party. The 40 minute workout I used to frequently break a sweat to, but would still energetically complete start to finish. Today I had to stop several times to catch my breath or wait for the cramps in my sides to dissipate. My arms and legs felt clumsy and heavy when I remember I used to feel so athletic and almost graceful doing certain moves. I'm not surprised considering it's been well over a year since I've used this DVD. But it's a bit of a wakeup call because I know how out of shape I've gotten and how I need to get back on track. At least I completed the workout beginning to end, but I'm eager to get back to where I used to be. I'm pretty sure if I stick with it it actually won't take me very long to struggle a lot less than I did today.