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When Life is hard....

Saturday, June 01, 2013

Like most people.....these are trying times for me. Not sure why, but sometimes it is just hard to get a break. On Thursday, I was thrown a loop and was just getting a handle on it and another one sucker punched me in the face today. Sigh :(

Oh well.

I think it is ironic that the topic this week at weight watchers was emotional eating. Why do we do it?

Well....at the meeting I would have answered because I want too.

Now....I can honestly say.....



When you have no control over your circumstances.....emotional eating gives you control. It is a rather twisted way of saying.....THERE....you cannot touch me...I am escaping with my food and it makes me feel good. It numbs the world ..the outside forces.

Over the Memorial Day Weekend, I ate for HAPPINESS! I was glad for the time off and celebrated with family with food. I had preplanned that and saved my weeklies and most of my ap points to do so. I had no regrets....till I got on that scale this week. Even then, I had to REMIND myself that was the chance I was willing to take and NO REGRETS.

I was good after that...I was. Back on plan and marking off those healthy guidelines and PROUD of the fact that I didn't wait to RESTART again on my new week. I restarted beforehand. ...the next day.

Then.....LIFE threw me a blow....several blows.....and I handled it with junk mindless eating with a vengeance.

Didn't last long. Last night...I admitted to myself...this is not how I want to be....not who I am. Might be HOW I FEEL.....but...it wasn't WHO I WANT TO BE OR AM.

I am pretty lucky. I have THREE friends ( Susie, Kim, and Alice) I share my accountability with. I told them what I had done and how I feel/felt. New month was to start and ...I wanted to feel whole. I was bound and determined to do so. I am tired of doing so well for so long and then.....reverse everything I have accomplished.....

Started GRAND today I did!

and WHAM! A slap in my face......and.....I sat down in disbelief. I felt my world crumbling around me........

and......

I did NOT reach for comfort food even though the thought crossed my mind. I reasoned with myself.....and said....

It will be alright...may not be today....but eventually it will be and..........I won't let this unfold my way of life I am fighting to obtain full time.


SO.....went for a fast power walk instead and drank water as though it was a emoticon LOL!


Today....I did well with food. ..27 points.....one point over...and all my healthy guidelines in.

I have grocery list ready for tomorrow.......so I have want I need for the following week.



Bottom line......it doesn't matter what my trail and tribulations happen to be....WE ALL HAVE THEM from TIME TO TIME....

what matters...is to NEVER give up no matter how hopeless one may feel. I am pretty lucky. I actually reached out....and shared with people that I trust ....and whom to trust me. Instead of EMOTIONAL EATING...I DID EMOTIONAL TALKING......

That song......with the lyrics....IT IS THE END OF THE WORLD AS WE KNOW IT.....AND I FEEL FINE.....

I get it. Always thought it was stupid......but...

I feel FINE....and my tracker will reflect that.





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