I Finally Had To Do It

So, I lost 71 pounds and felt great about it! So what did I do? Slacked off on exercising and eating right. I gained back 10 pounds. No, that isn't much, but I am so mad at myself for letting it happen! I have been back on track for the past 2.5 weeks. I re-lost 4 of those pounds. Then I keeping going back and forth though on 2 of those... gain... lose... gain .... lose.... ARGH!

I'm one of those people who weighs in every day. I know that all the experts say that we shouldn't, but I always have. It's what (usually) works for me. However, this past week and a half with the back and forth has been extremely frustrating.

I keep telling myself that I am gaining muscle because I have finally gotten serious about strength training. My clothes are fitting better, so I am sure that this is the case. However, my head just can't wrap itself around those numbers. This morning I had the hubby hide the bathroom scale. Yep. I have no idea where it is. That's the only way. I told him to get it back out on the last day of the month. That is when I will weigh myself next. Hopefully, even if the number doesn't go down, by then I will see a more noticeable difference in the way my clothes fit and the way I look. Then maybe I will finally be able to accept whatever number is on the scale.