Wow, that IS me
Tuesday, January 07, 2014
I consider myself a fair critic of my habits and rarely have to pause for very long asking myself "is that me?" Especially when it comes to objective things like portion control or cheating on workouts. For this reason, I was just stupefied by my actions at the dinner table.
I used the nutrition tracker to calculate what I needed to eat for the rest of the day and ended up pulling out some 16-bean soup from the freezer and warming it up with some extra chicken stock. I'm not feeling so hot and didn't entirely feel like eating but knew that I should so that I wouldn't binge latter.
I got a call from one of my staff so instead of walking away from my dinner I slowly ate it as the conversation allowed. I ended up being halfway through and wishing I was done. It was delicious, but I was full. At first I kept eating because I figured it was because I was just not feeling too hot. Then I couldn't stop thinking about how filling beans were. I decided I wanted to stop, but it wasn't enough to keep for another time. Then it hit me. Wow, I'm that person. I have to clear my plate. I don't have a problem not finishing a drink or a desert, but when it comes to a meal...well there are children starving in Africa and all that.
I can't believe I am plate cleaner and didn't know it. Good thing I already know what to do about it from all my SP reading. I never implemented any of the strategies (smaller plate, small portions and come back, pack up left overs immediately) because I didn't consciously know I was doing it.
The mind is an amazing thing.