10 YEARS :(
Saturday, January 11, 2014
This breaks my heart to write.
I started 2014 with the heaviest weight that I've been in just over 10 years. I am presently 300 pounds.
I am so ashamed of myself I did this to me.
The night time bingeing; the days on end of spending most of the day in bed and eating fast food (which is basically junk food).
I have already started to change my lifestyle ONCE again.
I am riding my bike again.
I am going to the gym - kind of regular.
NO MORE fast food.
I am trying to snap myself out of this depression that I've been in.
This depression just doesn't seem to be going away.
I cut off most of my hair; which is usually the sign that I am snapping out of this
BUT then I went back to bed again
I am continuing with seeing the PNP and the Therapist.
Praying . . .
I can not allow myself to be this heavy
My spinal fusion
I've went so far backwards in my recovery and my health
I WILL NOT LET THIS CONTINUE