Fat and Happy :)
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Once again I find myself making a post about how long it's been since I've been on here, and of course, a life update. So much has happened, but ultimately the most important things are my man and I are still together which makes this the longest relationship I've ever been in, due to my financial state and medical bills I've had to move back in with my brother and (step) dad, aaaaaannnnnnd the last time I was on here, I was only 13 lbs away from my goal weight of 200 lbs..... Now.... well.... I'm up to 244.4 lbs.
This time around, I'm not so worried about losing it back off as I used to be. I know I can do it because I've done it before. And my boyfriend thinks I'm beautiful either way, so I'm not worried about him losing his attraction to me. I'm not obsessing over my weight anymore because I've finally learned to love myself, which I credit Boyfriend as being the one to help me accomplish this by his loving me for myself and encouraging me to be me.
That being said, I do still want to keep trying and reach my goal weight. I want to be able to walk into a clothing store and more easily find clothes I like in a size that fits. And I need to focus on my health more due to heart issues that were discovered last year. Also, it would be nice to walk upstairs from my basement bedroom and not feel winded and out of breath.
I'll leave you with this; When you finally learn to love yourself and see your own beauty and self worth, life seems so much brighter and somehow, the weight loss seems easier, probably because it is no longer obsession that compels you, but a desire to be healthy because you do love yourself.