My brand new beginning!!

So, spring of 2014. I'm not where I was hoping to be in many ways. A new season means a new, fresh start. I am forgiving myself for the mistakes and poor choices I've made, and especially regarding my addiction to food. I followed a very strict diet plan for a full year in 2012, and I lost 80 pounds with that program. Unfortunately, it was far from realistic. They actually encouraged their members NOT to exercise!! So gradually, since the beginning of 2013, I have gained back over 50 pounds. To say I am discouraged is an understatement! However, I've been reading, reading, reading from reputable sources to correct my wrong thought processes about food, dieting, emotions, weight loss, blah, blah, blah. I've had 2 good days in a row. Scared of making the same mistakes again? Absolutely. Trying to turn to God for His help and guidance? You better believe it!! Can I do this in my own strength? Nope. I need my community of friends, fellow Christians, my family, and all of you to walk me through these baby steps...again.