Update

So, my last blog entry was at the end of September. I was upset with myself for regaining 17 pounds, and I was ready to get back on track.

On October 10th, I stopped at Planet Fitness during my lunch hour and took a tour of their facility. I liked what I saw. I also had recommendations from friends who had joined there, and they really liked it. I especially like their stance against "gym-timidation" as they call it. I joined Planet Fitness before leaving the building, and I even signed up to meet the personal trainer early the following Monday morning to help me set up a personal fitness plan. I was ready to do this!

A few hours later, though, I got a call from my dad. My dad NEVER calls me. It's not that he doesn't want to talk to me. He's just like me, and he doesn't really like to talk on the phone. I knew it wasn't good. He called to tell me that my mom had died. (This was VERY unexpected.) She was only 58 years old. He found her when he came home from work about half an hour before he called me.

Needless to say, I immediately packed a small bag and left to be with him. He lives about two hours away. I stayed with him for almost a week before returning home. Since that day, I haven't done a thing. Almost no exercise... I've been eating junk... (I'm a stress/emotional eater.) I just didn't care.

So, now here I sit.... almost six months later... no longer 17 pounds heavier than my lowest weight... now 37 pounds heavier.

I just cant seem to motivate myself. I can't get up in the mornings. I work from home, and I'm lucky if I get out of bed 10 minutes before I need to be at my desk and working. At lunch and in the evenings, I just want to snuggle with my dogs and sit on the couch. I tried to find someone to be my exercise buddy. I thought that if I could get someone committed to meeting me at a certain time at the gym, maybe that would help. I couldn't get anyone to take me up on it.

It's the first day of a new month. I'm going to try this again. I'm tired of my clothes not fitting. I'm sick that I had to buy clothes just to be able to have clothes that fit on my recent vacation.

Wish me luck.