No computer games for me!!
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
So a couple of weeks ago, I decided to delete all my computer games which had been sucking up hours of my time each day. I found that way too much was being left undone--housework, laundry, Bible study, time with my family, time with friends, exercise, meal planning, and on and on the list goes. Part of decluttering my life also included these on-line games!
So, obviously enough, I now have all this extra time on my hands!! When I do sit down at the computer, I spend time reading Spark People "stuff" and other helpful online articles, answering e-mails, and computer work since I am self-employed. I miss the games a little bit, but not enough to get started on them again, since my personality is so addictive anyways. "Oh, just one more game to see if I can beat my score!!" is something I don't find running through my thought processes any more.
Lunches are being made the night before. I'm thinking ahead and planning meals. The house is tidier and my "to do" list is shrinking, although very slowly!! But not least of all, I am setting a much better example for my family with how to spend the precious 24 hours that God gives us every day.
For me, computer games are sort of like cookies, ice cream, or chips. In a perfect world, I could enjoy ONE cookie or measure out 1/2 CUP of ice cream or count out 19 potato chips for my serving. But I have too many hot buttons and addictive traits to try that yet. Hopefully one day, I will be able to sit with a friend and enjoy a small portion of dessert and tea and not feel the spiral beginning. But I'm not there yet. I'm still so new at this journey, and trying to "un"-learn so many years of bad eating and behavioral habits. The roller coaster of weight has not yet been mastered, and I just want to see that number going DOWN for a long, long time until I reach my goal.
When you sit and play a computer game, say a small prayer for me. Computer games are fun, relaxing, and often great to do a mindless activity for a few minutes at the end of the day. But for me, they are to be avoided for now. Pray for me to make wise choices in what I eat, in how I spend my time, and in my fight against depression. We CAN do all things through Christ who gives us the strength!!