Miracles

On a forum, The Thought of the day, people were asked if we believed in miracles. I do and I think most of us have witnessed something that just should not have happened or happened and it just floored us. To me it is amazing what we put our bodies through. Most of us on SP have a life story that would make a lot of people gasp. It is not just our weight, it is so many physical and mental issues in our lives that caused us to turn to food for comfort. Why? We were hurt as a child, as a adult, we made bad choices that cause huge amounts of guilt. There are probably a few hundred other reasons. I ate for comfort, I had a guilt complex so big I could not wrap my head around it, reason with it. My husband is in a wheelchair and had diabetes, you think I would keep the sweets out of the house for him if I love him right? Nope. I was selfish and sick. Emotionally and physically ill. I am on several medications for severe depression and anxiety. Since Feb I have only lost about 11lbs. I confirmed with the nurse that the psych meds are why it is so hard. So, I could just give up and go back to eating every sweet thing in the world, bringing them home, my husband has no will power either! I would be putting his life in jeopardy. I could quit the medications and go back to that woman who not only ate to much but was mentally ill and deal with all the bad stuff that comes with that. NO, I believe in miracles because I will not quit. I will not start eating all that bad food again, like so many times before! I will not quit my medication, it is part of what made me start SP in the first place! I will not let my husband down. So I am a miracle. Because I am alive, because I want to be alive, because I want to be healthy even if I don't drop all the weight I want to! I will strive to be the best person I can be for me, my family and friends. Yes I believe. Debbie Pheifer