RUN OR DYE 5k (PAWSE WEEK 8)
Sunday, June 29, 2014
I'll have more pictures later. Here's one:
It was my first one. It was almost all in the woods and very muddy. A huge complaint among everybody. The runners had a hard time running and sometimes we would have to single file around a huge mud pit. They even had one spot where a worker stood there and warned people that the hill was steep and slippery. We saw at least 3 people end up falling in the mud. I almost lost my shoe on numerous occasions. BUT! It was still fun. I didn't run much but I'm happy to say I ran some! I didn't plan on running at all. Once we got to the pavement I told my husband I would run in bursts. We would pick a cone or other landmark to run to and I made it every time. I think I only got in 4-5 bursts of quick running but I'm proud of that! My time was 57 minutes which I'm happy with since we walked slowly up and down muddy hills most of it!!
I've had a very rough past few weeks. I somehow got into a slump and was just going downhill fast. I was crying almost everyday, very emotional and depressed. I tried really really hard to find the underlying cause of what was going on and I found a few things that I am working on and are making a huge difference. One of them being my depression was causing me to be lazy, especially with housework, and just being in my house made me more depressed. I hate my apartment and it isn't a "home" to me. I started looking at new apartments and that was just blah. So I decided that I'm not going to be blessed with somebody better than I have no if I don't take care of what I have now. I started really scrubbing and deep cleaning things and getting back on track with laundry and dishes. My living room is almost clutter free except for a pile of things in the corner that below to other people and need to be delivered. My dishes have been done everyday for about 5 days. My stove is sparkling clean (that took almost 2 hours!! It was awful!) I'm feeling much better. I'm going to buy some decorations to make things nicer. Right now we have bare necessities and I need to start making the best of it. I think if my place was more pleasing to my eye I wouldn't hate it quite as much! Oh and my mom gave me a plant that looks real and it's not! So I have a great decoration and I can't kill it! yay!!
I'm paying better attention to my diet this week too. I made a list of meals for dinner so we quit going out to eat or ordering. With my kitchen being clean, having to do dishes isn't an excuse for being lazy and eating out. It's nice making dinner in a clean kitchen with counter space!
The 5k really inspired me to get healthier. I want to go next year and look at my pictures this year and see how far I've come. I caught a shirt they threw out into the crowd and got home and realized it's a size S. Ha. The one I ordered for the day was a mens 2X. Next year I will be in a smaller size and not feel so horrible having to be in the line for the 2X while my husband is swimming in a medium!
This week I'm going to focus on eating healthier and more water! I'm going to get back into a training program instead of being bored trying to find some way to move my body everyday. Olivia loves music and dancing now so I've been working out and dancing with her everyday. And when she takes her bath I've been doing squats and various ST movements (anything I can do that doesn't take my eyes off her!)
So.... in summary.... I'm back. I'm fierce. I will beat this plateau that has me chewing my nails and wanting to scream. I ready to love doing this again!