Weight loss takes patience, and why I hate the scale
Thursday, October 09, 2014
I joined the Black Panthers Challenge 4 weeks ago, which I am enjoying, but I gained 2.5 lbs. during the first 3 weeks.
This really threw me for a loop. I honestly could not figure out what was going on. Was I eating too much? (I don't track my food on my therapist's advice and am working on listening to my body's cues, so I didn't actually know.) I was discouraged and disheartened. I had not binged, I was eating super healthy and I was exercising. What gives???? If I hadn't joined the challenge, it might not have bothered me so much, but weighing in every week and posting my losses or gains for all to see bothered me and made me feel like a failure. I considered quitting the challenge.
But I decided to just go with it. I didn't change anything I was doing. I may have actually eaten more last week. I kept re-reading my NSV list. Over and over I kept telling myself that I really was headed in the right direction and that I just needed to keep going. "It's a marathon, not a sprint." " If you are going through hell, keep going." " Just keep swimming."
Yesterday I was so happy when I got on the scale and I had lost 1.5 lbs.! I'm still up one pound since I started the challenge, but at least I broke through the plateau.
This is all an example of the old "diet thinking" and how destructive it is.
In the big picture, it is really NOT important if I gain a little weight during the journey. What is important is that I keep going and feel like I am being successful.
Posting my NSVs was a huge help. I highly recommend it. I also thought about what it would be like if there were no scales in the world. If that were the case, I would have never known that I had gained 2.5 lbs. I would just keep eating healthy and exercising and eventually my clothes would get baggy. All of us would have to rely solely on NSVs.
Come to think of it, that might be a better world.