My almost 3 week Plateau

I'm feeling pretty bummed. Today is the 20th day I've been at the same weight. Some days I'm a bit higher but not lower. It's so frustrating. I just want it gone.

I'm trying to evaluate why I'm not losing weight. When I look at my FitBit I am finding that I have only gone over 5000 steps once in the past few weeks so even with working out this week I'm pretty much sedentary. Well that's not going to make the weight go anywhere.

I also am not tracking food. I am trying to eat healthy and a lot of snacks and meals are but I'm drinking some calories and I have no idea what my calories on are. I also snack a lot whenever I wake up to feed the baby and even if it's healthy I think I'm doing it because I'm tired not because my body actually needs it. Once upon a time (prepregnancy) I was eating so healthy and was so hydrated I didn't need to count caleries; I could honestly just listen to my body and I'd get the right amount to maintain. I also worked out almost everyday either running or JNL Fusion, T25 or TurboFire. I am not doing that now, I just finally got my butt off the couch last Sunday night but like I discovered even with working out other than that I'm pretty much sedentary with no clue how many caleries I'm consuming.

I'm also down on myself which I'm sure makes a big difference. If I'm not positive and already living like I've achieved my success then how am I going to get there? I have do much to do but no energy to do it. I need to figure out my bills, put away laundry, clean the house, clean the fridge, meal plan and workout and eat healthy and all this while having a little guy who is attached to my hip. Everything is a mess; my car, my room, my bills, my clothes...everything. Me being messy is a clear sign that I'm not ok, my mood and motivation are extremely down if I'm letting these things go. Even when he's napping I still rarely get off my butt outside of working out.

So I can see areas of improvement that I need to make. So maybe i should take a second to be realistic. I know going back to work will help me time space my food and manage what I eat at least during the week for breakfast, lunch and snacks. It will have me on a schedule. It will also give me more of a chance to be up and around. I park across the street in a parade and am on the fifth floor of my building. So I can take the stairs to and from work. I can take breaks throughout the day and go up and down the stairs and use the stairs instead of the elevator when needing to go to meetings and such while at work. I can continue to use my FitBit. My sleep will start to be more on a schedule which will help whatever is going on internally. I bought some little notepads to put I my purse to write down everything I eat so I can enter it each day which will also help me be more accountable about these extra feedings. I also plan to write down my mood so I can monitor that as well.

I'm trying to be positive and I have to admit it's hard. I just needed to write it down and force myself to look at what I am doing or not doing that could be causing issues and lack of success.