Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Over the years and especially over the last few months, I have used every excuse to get out of exercising and/or just plain taking care of myself. I have been too tired, too depressed, in need of comfort, too stressed, didn't get enough sleep, what's the use???
Of course, all of those are nonsense and as I re-commit myself to a healthier way of life, I realize just what a crock of crap I was feeding myself and pretending to like it.
I have been tired, especially over the last 8 months, while my mother was ill. But that isn't excuse for not taking care of my needs. In fact, in all of my excuses, I was deliberately sabotaging my good health and what I'd worked for in losing all my weight initially. If I had been exercising and eating good, healthy food instead of junk, I would have been able to sleep better and so would have been less stressed.
I could look back and castigate myself for not being perfect and in another life, I would have. Instead, I am going to say that I fell down and it has taken a while for me to get to my feet again. This fall hasn't defeated me. It hasn't taken away my determination to be healthy. It certainly hasn't been able to take away what I've learned over the last 2 years. It hasn't stopped me, nor will it.
Everyone has periods of time where for whatever reason, all we want to do is hibernate. I had the triple whammy all in one year: divorce, moving, and the death of my mother. I needed to be kinder to myself in order to deal with all of that. Now that I'm on the other side of the river from all of that, it feels like I am coming out of a deep fog and I am ready to take on the challenges of my life again.
Since I am now out of shape again, I am starting back in baby steps:
1) Walking every weekday on the indoor fieldhouse track. I started again yesterday and did a km, which was 4.3 laps (I actually did 5 laps). I intend to increase that by a lap a day. My boyfriend got me a Garmin Vivofit for Christmas which monitors my steps and how I sleep so I am using that.
2) Taking the stairs at work whenever I can. I'm out of breath when I do it now, but that won't last for long.
3) Drinking 8 glasses of water. I drank 8 yesterday.
4) Planning my meals out a week in advance. I have planned up to Monday of next week and bought the groceries for what I need to make.
5) Make my lunch right after supper and bring it to work. This saves me precious time in the mornings.
6) Go to bed by 10:30pm every night to ensure getting at least 8 hours of sleep.
After a month or two of walking, I will add weight training to the mix.
I have set a goal of my birthday to be at my goal weight. It gives me something tangible to look forward to and falls into the SMART goal setting principle :
I want to lose 57 lbs by August 21st, 2015, which is 31 weeks. I will do it by walking every day and adding strength training 3 times a week after my muscles are used to exercising again.