Starting and restarting my journey.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
Yes, I have been on this journey a very long time. I was almost to onederland and then turnede around and started back up the scale. I was going down and have started back up. I am at my highest weight since starting SP. I am depressed but reluctant to start.
My excuses are simply lack of motivation. I think I am too tired to wake up in the morning and start exercising. I don't feel well. I am sure it is due to my weight and out of control blood sugar. I just need to get started. I need to take one step in the right direction.
When I tell myself that my head spins with could have and should have statements. i am embarrassed to not have traveled further in the correct direction. I could have completed the weightloss portion of the journey several times and been in maintenance by now. Some of it is because of my own struggles. Some of it is beliving people who told me I couldn't do whatever my idea was.
I need to sit and make a list of what I enjoyed that worked in the past and why i want to make this journey.