Getting back on track?
Thursday, June 04, 2015
When I got on the scale a few weeks ago… Actually, that’s not true. I didn’t get on the scale. I didn’t need to get on the scale. I knew from how my clothes were fitting and how I looked sans clothing that I was gaining weight. Heavy sigh. So about a month ago I decided I was ready to recommit refocus rededicate and get this healthy living thing back on track. Woohoo!
So here I am, getting back on track. But am I really getting back on track?! To me getting back on track implies that I had completely lost my way and had fallen so far off the wagon I didn’t even know where the damn thing was! Ha!
And honestly I didn’t, don’t feel like that at all. Even though the scale had creeped up and my belly had gotten slightly larger as crazy as it sounds I truly believe that I had not totally lost my way. I had not completely abandoned all of the healthy lifestyle ways that had help me lose over 40 pounds. And maybe even more important, I didn’t let the old shame gremlins tell me how fat and stupid I was for gaining weight. Trust me, whenever they got a glimpse of my belly in the mirror they were trying their best to knock me down with all of their negative talk.
I refused to let them run the show. What I know for sure is the ONLY way for me to release this weight is from a place of love and light. Positive vibes only! Fat shaming myself will not give me the lasting results I want and deserve. I am worthy. Like RuPaul says, “If you can’t love yourself, how the hell are you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an ‘Amen’ up in here!”
June is off to a great start. I’m doing the 10,000 step 5 mile challenge. So far so good! But I’m not going for perfection here. Got a Fitbit Zip and I love it, especially because it can sync with my phone so I know how I’m progressing when I’m not near my computer. I’m cleaning up my eating and limiting my wine/beer to the weekends. It’s not rocket science. In terms of a measurable goal I want to lose 1-2 inches by the end of June. I’m trying to limit my interaction with the dreaded scale because I am prone to obsess over those dang numbers.
Let’s face it. This is not about a diet. This is about lifestyle. Healthier habits for the rest of my life. And I’m on it!