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Trying to find the courage and strength to do this again -OR-still.

Friday, June 19, 2015

My 2015 has been difficult and a bit crazy.

My daughter has medical problems. I quit my job as a substitute classroom aide to be home again to care for her. she is making progress but it is slow going.

I have not been on a challenge team singe I hurt my finger and could no longer lift weights. i miss having a home on SP. My former team broke up. I miss those who I thought were my friends.

I decided to come back. Some have unfriended me. I thought we were friends. I will miss you. I am sad that our friendship did not survive my struggles.

I am struggling. I weigh the most I have weighted since 2001.

I am a bit depressed. I am diabetic and I love carb foods. i need to turn this around. I want to. I made a list of things that worked before. I hope they will work again.

I want to do this. I need to remind myself of that.
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  • RONDADEBI
    it's always a good opportunity to make new friends...

    HI I'm Ronda, I'm from wyoming...

    Mother of 3

    grandmother of 2

    LDS member since 1980...

    lets get you back on the ball again and become a strong leader....you got this....
    1855 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    Sorry your having trouble Pam. Hope your daughter is feeling better. I miss that team too.
    1862 days ago
  • SHIRLEYX
    I am also addicted to carbs. Carrie is a wise woman. We need to start small and eliminate one unhealthy carb at a time.
    1880 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5127867
    I've been where you are. And, as everyone before has said, you can do this. Start small - pick one carb to remove fro your way of eating.

    Stumbling and picking yourself up is a sign of strength
    1880 days ago
  • BARBARAJ73
    emoticon ... you really can!! You're off to a great start reviewing the things that worked for you in the past. Put them in place and you're on your way!!!!!
    1880 days ago
  • NANCY-
    The fact that you are here now is a great start.
    I'm still here and have been struggling too, since last summer perhaps. My blood glucose numbers kept rising. with new meds... the carbs have been calling bigtime.
    So I hear you. some of my SP freinds have drifted away, too You were one, I am so glad that you are back.
    Anything you do is a step in the right direction.
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    1880 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    ((((HUGS))))) So sorry things are tough. Prayers. Know we're here for you.
    1881 days ago
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