Nervous, but will Persevere
Tuesday, August 04, 2015
This past Sunday was my long run. I was suppose to run 18 miles, but ended up running over 15 miles. My first 12 miles were fine, but then the plantar fasciitis flared up really badly. I ended up walking the last 3 miles in pain. I haven't felt pain like that since my first Half Marathon in November 2013. As I was walking back to my car, the tears started to come down my face, because I was starting to wonder why did I sign up for this Full Marathon in September. Fear, doubt and anxiety overtook me.
Additionally, I thought if I didn't do this Full in September that I would feel like a failure, because my first Full would have been in April. But due to the lack of training, I stepped down to the Half and said to myself that I will sign up for another one in the fall. However, this has been a true challenge because doing long runs in this heat is a huge difficulty in addition to the time constraints of a long run.
Well, despite my nervousness, I am going to attempt 18 miles again this weekend. I refuse to give into fear and doubt. I will persevere and conquer these fears and doubts. I have 6 weeks remaining until my first and maybe my only Full Marathon. I will press into my training, rest when necessary and do the best I can.