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Saturday, October 10, 2015

I dint realize how bad this episode was until the other day. i really did let the depression take over every aspect of my life. I want to say that its over and that I'm getting better but I'm not I'm getting worse. Well at least I'm not suicidal ( only cause past attempts didnt work and there are no guarantees that theyever will so I'm done trying that)
I've done this to myseld I put myself in a bublle away from ppl away from life. I'm content to sit on the side lines and watch others live lifes.

No this isnt something that I can just snap out of
yes I'm suppose to b seeing a dr but medicaid is a freakin joke on fixing their mistakes
yes tomorrow is another day; but I'll still b me and still b pathetic

no I dont want anyone to feel sorry for me I do that enough myself
I just need to get some of this rambling out of my head

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    I completely understand what you are feeling. I am here for you, you never have to be alone thru this.

    1866 days ago
    I am usually a very positive person, but when I was 65 I went through about 3 years of what you describe. No, you can't just snap out of it. Luckily, I had wonderful friends that were present with me and allowed me to work through it.

    I never want to do that again!!!
    1871 days ago
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