First Day Back...
Sunday, January 03, 2016
Today was my first day back when it comes to tracking calories. I hate tracking calories but I also hate what I look like. I have to do this. I am at the highest weight I have ever been. (Technically the highest was 240) Now I weigh 235lb. I am only 21. I now have a 6 mo daughter and two step children that I need to live for and get healthy for. Plus, I am sick of walking into stores and not finding pants in my size. I'm sick of having to wear my maternity pants 6 months postpartum. I am sick of constantly feeling self-conscious. And I m sick of the thighs of my pants wearing out so quickly because of my fat thighs. I just want to feel good about myself. For most of my life, I have been a bigger person. Now when I look back at my old pictures all that I can think about is how beautiful I was. I need and want to make some big changes in my life. I need to do it for me and I need to do it for my kids. My current goal is to lose 48lbs by my daughters first birthday. That is about a 2lb weight loss per week. However, I am not going to get hooked on that number. My main goal is to get healthy. I eat crap all of the time. The high range of the calorie level that sparkpeople gives me is about 1600 calories. Today when I tracked my calories I was 1000 calories over that. That did not even count some of the small stuff that I was munching on in the car. It was a huge wake up call for me. I knew that I was eating a lot of food but I did not realize just how much food I was eating. I am going to start eating smarter and I really hope that that will help me out. The thing is that I thought I was doing well was eating lentils, because we eat a lot of those. I thought hey, these are high in protein and the calories are not that bad for one serving. I clearly was not paying attention to what a serving size actually was though. Today I tracked the exact calories of the lentils I eat and I believe I ate about 2 cups. That alone was almost 700 calories. I clearly need to pay much more attention to what I am doing. I think that I might start coming up with my own meal plans that way this does not happen so frequently. This is going to be a very long journey for me but I am going to take it slowly and not jump in like a mad woman. I already know that if I do that then I will quickly get burnt out. Some things that I want to start with involve limiting my dairy intake (I have a cheese obsession), drinking more water, and paying attention to the amount of carbs that I take in. I also plan to exercise. I am going to start out this month by doing the Leslie Sansone walking workouts and some postpartum exercises because this belly pooch has got to go. I feel like my belly is always sticking out of the bottom of my clothes and it is disgusting. We'll see how it goes. I just hope that I can keep my motivation up. I didn't really set a New Years Resolution this year because I know that they rarely ever work out as planned. However, if I were to set goals for the new year those goals would be to have a healthier relationship with my husband and to become healthier overall. Happy New Year Everyone!