Need to find a little focus
Monday, April 25, 2016
*WARNING* I'm in a foul mood, so if you're sick of hearing people complain on their blogs, skip mine.
I'm in a fog-brain, muddled, blah sort of state right now. Things aren't progressing how I'd like them to and I'm beyond frustrated with myself. I've told myself it's a marathon, not a sprint. And deep down, I know this. But I'm used to at least being able to set my own pace, and for now, that's out of my control and it's driving me crazy! I can't seem to get my head in the game! I'm still tracking (even when it's junk food), still drinking my water, and working very hard at rehabilitating my foot, but that's about it. I feel like I'm just going through the motions with everything else.
I tried an outside walk yesterday. I was so excited to be outside walking! Until I could only make it 18 minutes, at a SLOW pace (just over 1/2 mile in that time), and my foot was hurting so bad I had to wear my boot the rest of the day. And even then, any weight-bearing just about took me down. I just wanted to cry or scream or punch something! I'm so sick of this crap!!!!
I'm cranky and frustrated!
Oh well, I'll deal with it. It's not like I have a choice.
And another thing! I've had a freaking doughnut craving for WEEKS now and still haven't been able to have one! I have to have one soon or one will end up leading to one BOX! I'm not even that much of a doughnut person either! But once a craving takes hold, I ignore/combat it as long as I can, but at this point, it'll cause a binge if I don't get one. So sometime over then next couple days, I WILL get one lol.
If you read this and feel like I've been nothing but a negative Nancy, well...I DID warn you. lol