no team player

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

"if you don't like something, change it.
If you can't change it, change your attitude. - calm reflections by Jo Ryan

I have done a few challenges on Spark now and I wanted expand my horizon and start something more or something different , I don't know... looking over the calendar it seemed do-able. Now, 6 days in I am not so sure. I hate feeling this way. I know I have limits, physical limits and when I try to overcome them some, I get to where I push myself a little. While most of us need that little push, me included... I forget sometimes to take my body and its limits in consideration. That's when I want to turn and run, give up, crawl under a rock and hide. I want my body to do what its suppose to do, but forget when I feel great, that it's not like that any more. I hurt and wear the braces, I try to do everything everyone else does and can't keep up. On the day of my highest achievement yet..... I lost 30 lbs. since I started and a good part of that since I started here on "Spark" ... yet I fail miserable because I forget to do what is right for me. I want to compete with everyone here... do better, do more, get the highest points. That is where I failed. It's not about me any more it's about winning, being better, being someone else. It is not me! And That Stops now! Have fun everyone, I'm out of the race!

From here on on out I do everything for me and myself. I will work out when I feel fit and when I can move I'll do a lot, but when I hurt I will rest. I will monitor my meals because I like that part a lot. And I will eat right and count my glasses of water, because I would miss this. I will record my stats and my measurements because it will give me a way to see progress for myself, but I will no longer choose a challenge that is not right for me. Oh, wow, that feels so much better. All day I was kind of depressed and feeling down, because when I opened my computer this morning I had three challenges on the list and I knew I could not do one of them. today was not the first time I felt like that. Sorry I can no longer be one of the teams, but hopefully I can remain someone's friend. I truly believe in Spark and it's community, just not the challenges. They are not right for me and go against my nature. I am not a competing person. I am a butterfly and much rather visit and follow along ... as long as we are heading in the same direction I'm along for the ride.

Again in the reflections of Jo Ryan... we can try to avoid making choices by doing nothing.... but even that is a decision.
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    It's good you are letting go of what doesn't 'work' for you. I've been off and on Sparkpeople 3 times now and it's been a learning process of adjusting to what parts of Spark work for me and what doesn't. I always seem to get caught up in the challenges/points/etc. each time however and, like you, my body cannot always cooperate.

    So I applaud your steps to 'customize' your usage of Sparkpeople ... there is much here for those of us that are not competitive.

    If teams are not your cup of tea feel free to friend me, sparkmail me, etc. for 'company' if you feel like it! take care, dj

    1706 days ago
    It's always about what's best for you, always. Focus on you and you will see results. I can't do alot either, and I'm sure there are countless others in the same boat.

    Don't beat yourself up over this, because in the end, it IS all about you!! {{{HUGS}}}

    1706 days ago
    So glad to hear you're focusing on YOU! Something I have trouble remembering, but is so so important:

    "Comparison is the thief of joy." -Theodore Roosevelt emoticon
    1706 days ago
    Good for you! To me, the whole point of SparkPeople is developing a healthy lifestyle, and that INCLUDES figuring out what is right for YOU. Some people thrive on challenges. Some people stay accountable by weighing every day. Some people eat gluten free and run marathons. It just happens that none of those things are right for ME, and that's what's most important!
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    What a quote
    1707 days ago
    That is the quote I live by!
    1707 days ago
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