After a two year absence, I have returned to sparks on a more consistent bases. I left BLC after Alice passed away. My grief and yes, guilt, was too deep to continue on without my friend. In those two years, I have gained a tremendous amount of weight, but have lost half of that in the past year. My goal is to lose 20 more to be at lifetime with wws...and ten on top of that for a personal goal.
I never thought I would want to return to BLC.....I thought there was a time and a place and my time had expired. I felt I had no place. For awhile now I was wondering if I was ready to return. I have become disenchanted with FB. The politics....the hate...the abused animals....just took the fun out of it for me. I have always used the social media for FUN and reconnecting with friends and making new. I wanted...something more .......I wanted that SPARK once again.
Was I ready? Am I ready?
I decided to take that plunge and try. I wasn't sure if I would make BLC and placed on a team. That insecure feeling arose and I waited.
I not only made BLC..but was placed on the Camo team! I felt....young again. I remember the first round I ever had with BLC. It was new....exciting...and a tad scary. The security blanket is gone and I am exposed.
I am like the prodigal daughter that has returned home. A little for the wear, but wiser......and....stronger with the passage of time.
I feel Alice with me. I feel she would understand and nod her approval....like what took you so long?
Each season is 13 weeks long. I am still on Summer Smiles and Autumn Leaves is not till September 21st. Yet...MY FALL will be 15 weeks long starting September 7th for that is when BLC starts and ends December 21st. Yes...I break up my seasons with titles/themes. Winter Whispers starts the December 21.
I am looking forward to being on the Camo Crew. I do like my alone time...my quiet time, but....I ...have to admit......I also need the interaction with others that are constantly striving to be the best they can be.
I am totally amazed with how well organized BLC is now. It is like the full package deal. I am still confused on a few things, but realize as we go along, I will get the hang of it.
Anxious to see my progress after 15 weeks, but at the same time, not rushing the season..the round. I am going to work on the full package of ME.....