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Fall of Shame or Opportunity to Rise!!

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Hey Sparkies,

So it's been a while since my last blog but I was actually doing well with both my eating and exercise just busy with school. I weighed in at 160 lbs on January 29th, just 1 pound away from a helathy B.M.I and then I relocated to my parents' house for the month because I was placed at a hospital near to them for my current rotation. Then I was faced with junk snacks in abundance that I don't buy in my own house, meals that I don't cook, freshly baked desserts from my mother and grocery shopping that I didn't control and I used all of this as an excuse to show no self-control and eat everything in sight.

I tried to get a hold of myself several times but I would do well in the mornings and then polish off whole bags of snacks in front of the t.v. in the evening. I was starting to feel helpless and like there was no hope and I even tried challenging myself this past Sunday to no more than one serving of junk per day because I reasoned that making it no junk would be too heavy a restriction which would just set me up for a binge down the road.

Anyway this morning I stepped on the scale to be greeted by a glaring 166.6 lbs, 6.6 pounds up from my weight just 2.5 weeks ago! Was I disappointed? Very much so but was I surprised? To be honest no. My challenge of no more than one serving of junk had not been going well or more accurately had not been going at all and so I didn't expect any kind of loss on the scale this morning because I truly hadn't earned one. I still hoped though emoticon Anyway on seeing this number I was really, really tempted to just say "I'm done!" "I obviously can't do this" and "I am never going to get below 160 lbs" but then I was scrolling through my friend feed and I saw this quote

And it's like it relighted this fire in me and restored my self-belief in myself. I accepted that it was my choices that got me back up to 166.6 lbs and those same choices that could get me back down to 160 lbs AND BEYOND and with that in mind I just sat down and re-assessed all my goals. I set goals to address my current dilemma of eating too much junk in front of the T.V. and I reset all my weight goals so that I wouldn't feel too pressured about losing the regain.

I was tempted to view all this as a fall of shame but instead this is my opportunity to rise up, refresh myself and reach my goals. If you're feeling helpless like I did then I encourage you to join me in changing your outlook because emoticon emoticon emoticon We just have to emoticon and be our own solutions!
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