all you need is love
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
It is sad really how much each of us relays on others to make us feel better for ourselves. I am no exception... sadly. So when I started to feel bad last week and got right down into a pity party because I gained 3 lbs. over the last few weeks my husband knocked that sh..t right out of me.
He got so over the top cheerleading and telling me how great I was that it became not just ridiculed but slightly embarrassing as well. He kept on and on until I got the point and had no choice but laugh at him and myself. Well, he didn't stop at that but turned right around and wanted to know what brought that feeling of low self-worth on... no he is no shrink, he is my loving husband who suffers from depression and many health issues that bring those feeling along. So recognizing the symptoms he wanted no part of it for me. I have to be his cheerleader therefore I cannot be in the boat with him.
Together we discovered that I am doing well on my journey to better health and I am losing weight, slowly. But that is ok and it is enough because overall I am doing better. We can both see the changes how I am even getting some muscle definition in my arms and upper back from the weight training I am doing, how I am walking longer and how my blood pressure is stable and consistent. But most of all how I am able to handle my arthritis. I am medication free for most days and knock on wood how I have not been sick.. not even a cough for the past 2 years.
Best of all.... because I am doing all this and getting better each and every day, he is doing better, too. My hubby is reversing his heart problems... the last cath. lab showed clean stents, no sign of plaque in any of them (his surgeon was impressed) and his internal dr is talking about reducing his diabetes meds. Together we are doing this because we can! and all we need...